Dave Thomas is rolling over in his grave.

A most unpleasant experience last night for me at Wendy's on Sepulveda Blvd. in Van Nuys, CA. I went to their drive-thru window and ordered two classic single burgers, two sets of fries, and one Frosty as I was on my way to my buddy Johnny's house to hang and kick it.

Well what happens? The first Latina bitch gives me two Frosties and charges me for it when I only asked for one. I told her, "I'm sorry I only wanted one Frosty." She proceeds to argue with me that I said two and then has the nerve to communicate to her ex-chola co-worker in sarcastic Spanish that "Me dijo que quería dos..." ("He told me he wanted two...") and she continued to mumble other shit in Spanish about me that I clearly understood!!! Just because I'm a pale light skinned dude does not mean I do not speak or understand Spanish you duo of loser backward non-English commanding uneducated PUTAS! I even asked the other border crosser if she could gimme the adjusted order receipt not including the just returned Frosty and she rudely refused to do it!

I was starting to get very upset but what really did it for me was when she gave me back my change for the unwanted Frosty. Yeah, that was fine and dandy, but where the f**k was my change for the rest of my order? Out of a $20 bill I gave that wetback, I only got $2.15 and where tha hell was the rest you illiterate mojada? She claimed she had already given it to me, yet there I sat in my car, this "WHITEBOY WHO CANNOT POSSIBLY SPEAK ESPAñOL" like an idiot loser holding only two and change for a ten dollar or so order. Was it my mistake, or hers? It got to a point where FATASS MANAGER Edgar (who enjoys Wendy's burgers and Frosties one too many and it shows) came in to supposedly resolve the situation by bringing out receipts and shit and finally after about ten minutes he refused to give me my change claiming PENDEJA #1 had already given it to me.

Was it the rudeness of this whole ordeal that made me forget my first bit of change that PERRA claims to have given me? Or did I really get shorted? At this point, I have racked and racked my brain, but to no avail. Let's just say I left that Wendy's very displeased but not without telling misMANAGER EDGARCITO that he should advise his two shrews to use caution and discretion when speaking Spanish in front of customers that they assume will not understand them when THEY MIGHT OR WILL. And I told him in clear fluent Spanish too!

There you have it. I'm very proud of my Hispanic heritage. And dreadfully ashamed of those who taint it, like the worthless trio of SPICS at Wendy's last night. I'm never going to Wendy's again, but first I gotta get a hold of headquarters and report this most insulting experience with these vile heathens.

Dios me dé paciencia. (God grant me patience.)

Poor Scott Peterson. Off You Go Chucky!

Robert Blake and O.J. got away with murder, why couldn't Scott Peterson? WOW! What a loser! Such a handsome guy, now on death row, prime juicy meat for buttrape or murder from another inmate even! So what if Robert Blake went free, the guy is so insane, he's well on his way to joining O.J. on the golf course and completely losing his mind for good.

Mario Vásquez is now so adorably cute to me ever since he abandoned American Idol to pursue whatever. I'd so like to bone him. The only thing I hate is the way he and everyone else pronounce his last name. It’s not VASKWEZ, it's VASKEZ! UGH! GET IT RIGHT! It’s Spanish folks, and it would help if at least it sounded a little less irritating once the name is anglicized.

Our Last Hope! He Was Seduced By The Dark Side and So Were We!

Opens May 19, 2005!

My co-worker William just showed me the new Star Wars trailer and it looks nothing short of spectacular! I am praying and hoping Mr. George Lucas can finally redeem himself after giving us the last two fairly mediocre films in the series. It looks quite dark and menacing as we see the complete transformation of Anakin Skywalker into Darth Vader!

I'm really excited though about Ian McDiarmid, the actor portraying the evil emperor. He's got a real meaty role here. Keeping my fingers crossed and hoping this movie delivers...

Gays of Our Lives

Here's hoping the fight goes all the way, and that gay marriage finally gets approved. We have so many more important problems in this world, I cannot believe that in this day and age people would get so worked up against allowing people basic rights. Get over it and just let it happen so we can get to the things that truly matter!

http://apnews.myway.com/article/20050315/D88RE1400.html

Nous sommes dans la merde!

Yeah so I took four years of French back in high school (what about 13 years ago or so?), and I was pretty good and learned a lot. Knowing another language based on Latin (Spanish at home) helped me tremendously to pick up French quickly back then. However, due to its limited use in California, I had all but shelved the language of Paris for the past twelve years or so.

That is, until I started working at my current job, which looks like the roster of the United Nations or something to that effect. Here I ran into a social worker who understood my French perfectly, but who wouldn't answer me due to her forgetting how to speak it. She told me though I had an impeccable accent, as did another visitor to our office from Vietnam who said I spoke very well. Just about six months ago, I found the true hammer to my nail, my co-worker Alex, who speaks French very well after learning it in school alongside English back in Iraq. We have never ceased to speak it since, and in just these past few months, all the French I thought I'd forgotten has come back beautifully! It's amazing! I'm so excited to be practicing it once again and to be so fluent, more than I ever thought possible!

Too bad those uppity conceited frogs in Europe gave us the language, but oh well. Everything one learns is never in vain, and can always come back to help you one day.

Europe here I come! When? I dunno, but soon...

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/French_language

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spanish_language

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/English_language

DIE! DIE! DIE!

WHAT A PRICK OF THE FIRST KIND! This guy is a cold-hearted/blooded asshole!

They caught him, but he's done so much harm already. Ah man, I hate sharing the Planet with such scum.

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/7157845/

Just Great!

So there I was yesterday bitching about not getting enough comments on my blog entries, and now I come to find that the "comments" section is down and not working throughout the blogger system! WHAT GIVES MAN?! Oh well. Not like it matters for my lackluster blog anyway.

At least it's Friday.

Oh wait! They just found the bug and fixed it. Nevermind. And yes, it's still Friday.

I GIVE UP! IT WENT DOWN YET AGAIN!

No, now it's working. Let's just say, f**k it and move on, shall we?

Working Class Hero

As soon as you're born they make you feel small
By giving you no time instead of it all
Till the pain is so big you feel nothing at all
A working class hero is something to be
A working class hero is something to be

They hurt you at home and they hit you at school
They hate you if you're clever and they despise a fool
Till you're so fucking crazy you can't follow their rules
A working class hero is something to be
A working class hero is something to be

When they've tortured and scared you for twenty odd years
Then they expect you to pick a career
When you can't really function you're so full of fear
A working class hero is something to be
A working class hero is something to be

Keep you doped with religion and sex and TV
And you think you're so clever and classless and free
But you're still fucking peasants as far as I can see
A working class hero is something to be
A working class hero is something to be

There's room at the top they are telling you still
But first you must learn how to smile as you kill
If you want to be like the folks on the hill
A working class hero is something to be
A working class hero is something to be

If you want to be a hero well just follow me
If you want to be a hero well just follow me
--John Lennon from the Plastic Ono Band album

"Plastic Ono Band" was John Lennon's debut solo album after the break up of the Beatles. It was released on Dec. 11, 1970.

Please Comment on This Entry and Make Me Feel Important! WA WA WAAAAA!!!

BREAKING NEWS: Martha Stewart’s out of jail (you already knew that didn’t you?) and Michael Jackson may just go to the slammer (not for molesting Sesame Street viewers) but for showing up late to his ongoing trial consistently. From what I just heard, he just got to court a few minutes ago, in the most comical and ridiculous old sick patient mode ever, to get sympathy from the judge no doubt, who wants to throw the book at him. Ah Jacko, you are priceless.

I constantly run into other people’s blogs out of curiosity and find myself quite confused at some of their ramblings! Either only their close friends understand what the hell they’re talking about, or these people are just part of the growing blog community that thinks each and all their thoughts are interesting and worth posting. It all looks like Greek to me at times, even though they’re written in English. Sometimes I wonder myself why I even bother keeping a blog! Is it for my own personal satisfaction or for others to enjoy my own personal little "show?" Truth be told, it is kind of narcissistic isn’t it? I so hate it when I write an entry that I feel is a "masterpiece" and then days later there are 0 f**kin’ comments below it. I know people have probably read it, but how do I know? Yet on these other blogs, people amass so many comments, their sites seem to take on a life of their own! ARGH! ENVY! I FEEL ENVY! LOLOLOLOL!

I was happy last night to hang out with my very dear and beloved group of male buddies once again. When I am with David, Johnny, and Sonny and all we do is sit around watching TV and talking sh*t, I truly feel happy. These guys are all funny and witty in their own special way, they’re all laid-back (except when our Southern Belle David gets dramatic and turns into THEE Scarlet O’Hara in his attitude), and very fun and comforting to be around. They all truly do have great wit and most importantly good hearts. I can be myself around them and never feel constrained or self-conscious, which is so nice to have. I don’t know how long our little group will last, but for the past year or so, it has been quite fulfilling to have these cool guys in my life, for I love them so.

Talk about sending chills down my spine! Last night as I was going to bed, I had the Coast To Coast AM with George Noory show on my radio, and they had an expert woman on the air talking about the mindset and modus operandi of serial killers. It was really f**kin’ freaky and endlessly fascinating. She went through the whole list of them, from Jack the Ripper to the recent BTK Killer that was just caught. She said the one thing that identifies all of these disturbed individuals is their total lack of conscience/love, they’re all male, they come from good backgrounds/happy childhoods, and they are found throughout the world and during all of recorded history.

http://www.coasttocoastam.com/shows/2005/03/09.html#recap

I was looking over my shoulder last night just as I was going to bed, kinda creeped out for sure.

Yes Virginia, there might be WMD's after all...

HOLY FREAKIN' CRAP MAN! My co-worker Christa made the light bulb go off in my head this morning! Why all that fuss last week about Bush and crew telling the Syrians to pull out of Lebanon? It's all starting to make sense, but in this humble writer's opinion, the WMD's were indeed hidden in the Beqaa Valley of Lebanon and other various Syrian sites to avoid discovery in Iraq.

And today this:

Thousands Answer Hezbollah Call in Beirut

Well yes my dear Hezbollah, you don't want the Syrians to leave, they support your terrorist tactics and the place you call home is probably loaded with Saddam's weapons! HOW INTERESTING! THE PLOT THICKENS DOES IT NOT?! Bush and Co. now realize, know, and are ready to inspect and reveal that the Weapons of Mass Destruction are indeed at the Syrian-Lebanese border as had been suspected for quite some time.

READ ON:

http://www.debka.com/article.php?aid=780

http://www.debka.com/article.php?aid=482

http://www.freerepublic.com/focus/f-news/1012679/posts

http://www.freerepublic.com/focus/f-news/970161/posts

It's all so fishy, slowly making sense. I don't approve of Bush 100%, but if he can prove his case here and rid us of this scourge, more power to him.

And no, it wasn't a Lifetime chick flick...

So, my soul mate Mikey has been insisting that I watch Disney's Brother Bear for the past year or so on DVD and I kept putting it off until I was ready I guess. I finally sat down and watched it yesterday afternoon. I haven't seen a movie so emotionally moving and stirring like this in a long time. Yes, it brought me to true actual tears, what a wonderful story this was! Bravo to all involved in this most beautiful film, and screw the critics and others who tried to endlessly compare this to Finding Nemo, which was in itself a great film, but very different from Brother Bear.

Do yourself a favor and give this film a chance. You'll see what I mean. Pure love is truly a wonderful thing.

http://imdb.com/title/tt0328880/

Too Much of The Force Is With You!

As of late, I'm obsessed with anything and everything to do with this film franchise (especially the beloved trilogy I grew up with), which makes me wonder if I am truly a geek/nerd with no life.

I Hate Animal Suffering!

I'm not a vegetarian yet, but I still consider myself an animal rights activist and this kind of stuff just kills me.

http://www.sun-sentinel.com/news/local/southflorida/sfl-33strandeddolphins,0,4377682.story?coll=sfla-news-sfla

"I'd like to thank my pet dog Laika, my agent John Weisberg, my dildo..."

A slight oncoming cold Imma battling perhaps? COLD-EEZE to the rescue!

Congratulations to all of last night's winners, some seemingly more deserving than others, but that's the case every year when the awards are handed out.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/77th_Academy_Awards

I have to admit, I am very very happy to see Morgan Freeman finally get awarded for not just Million Dollar Baby, but symbolically for a whole body of work for which he has consistently been tremendously wonderful in.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Morgan_Freeman

And oh, did anybody else notice this?! I did, and it made me wonder how big the stick up Sean Penn's ass is!

http://www.hollywood.com/news/detail/article/2435529

Rebel With A Cause?!

Let me get this straight (excuse the pun). I'm 30 years old, have never drunk as much alcohol in my life as I am doing now (still in relative moderation mind you), am partying into the wee hours of the night about two/three nights a week, getting some good nookie thank you very much, and am possibly considering the use of marijuana (for the first time ever in my life!) sometime soon. Either I'm an immature bastard, never truly went wild in my earlier days, or have simply lost my mind.

"They're miracles those songs." -- Bono of U2 on The Beatles.

So there I was, just the other night, listening to some extraordinary remastered digital CD 's of music made forty years ago or so. Which is why I am now finally making time to write about my favorite band of all time!

Well yeah, it's pretty cliché and some would say way overrated, but that would be The Beatles. Simply put, they are modern music's greatest achievement for many many already stated reasons. They were the first music group to write and perform all their material. The songwriting of John Lennon, Paul McCartney, and George Harrison to this day remains unchallenged as the best ever in modern pop/rock music due to its incredible diversity, variety, and innovation. They introduced recording techniques and album release methods never before tried and now often imitated. Because of them, bands now tour the world. It is due to them that many bands were formed and came after when other young people decided that they too would pick up a guitar or learn to play the drums and form their own groups. And last but not least, the world's greatest Liverpudlians ever, are responsible for not only selling the most albums in history (one billion worldwide!), but for creating lasting music that to this day resonates with every age group alive and yet to come.

What is remarkable to me is that as much unquestionable support as The Beatles still have to this day, there are many who dismiss them as too light and not hardcore enough, which is totally missing the point. Sure, great bands like The Rolling Stones, Led Zeppelin, Van Halen, and Nirvana have outrocked the Beatles without question. But the Beatles wrote music that appeals to all, including those hardcore rock songs (Helter Skelter, Paperback Writer, and Revolution come to mind) that detractors often mention as lacking in The Beatles' repertoire. They were not a band that was going to be content with writing only headbanger songs. They needed to display and show the world what was truly going on in their brilliant diverse little minds.

I am astounded at the diversity and variety of their catalogue: ballads, instrumentals, bubble-gum pop, rock, cabaret, acoustic, psychedelic, classical, country, hippie, blues, existential, heavy, catchy, folk, etc. One need just purchase and listen to their 1968 release The White Album to acknowledge that these guys were true geniuses in every sense of the word. A complete music group that could play in and out of every genre possible. Something other bands then and even now don't dare do for fear of alienating their fans. This is the essence of the Fab Four, and why I like and admire them so much. The diversity, variety, and spectacular sound of their music sounds just as good today, as if these songs were recorded just yesterday! Beautiful melodies and gorgeous vocal harmonies that are second to none.

John Lennon is my favorite Beatle due to his cynical witty personality. Paul McCartney is to be admired for his amazing diversity and instrumental skills. George Harrison is underrated and to be admired more for some truly f**king great songs that he wrote for the group. And last but not least, Ringo Starr, for some decent drumming skills and the intelligence to admit that although he knew was the least talented; he was the one with the best heart and soul of them all.

Two Beatles are now sadly gone way before their time, and two remain. In my eyes however, and in millions of others the world over, The Beatles are all alive and well in their recordings and will continue to be forevermore.

Further reading:
http://www.allmusic.com/cg/amg.dll?p=amg&sql=11:hifrxqw5ldse~T1

http://www.rockonthenet.com/artists-b/beatles_main.htm

http://www.rollingstone.com/artist/bio/_/id/61025/thebeatles?pageid=rs.Artistcage&pageregion=artistHeader

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Beatles

Someday, Animals Shall Inherit the Earth.

This is the kind of story that only reiterates my view that animals are wonderful living creatures that deserve the utmost respect and admiration, and that we humans do nothing but destroy, overreact, kill, and f**k up this beautiful place called Planet Earth.

http://www.whittierdailynews.com/Stories/0,1413,207%7E24660%7E2728279,00.html

IT F**CKIN' ROCKS BABY!

U2 - Vertigo Lyrics
Album: How To Dismantle An Atomic Bomb

¡Uno, dos, tres, catorce!
Turn it up loud, captain
Lights go down
It's dark, the jungle is
Your head can't rule your heart
A feeling so much stronger
Than a thought
Your eyes are wide
And though your soul
It can't be bought
Your mind can wander
Hello, hello
¡Hola!
I'm at a place called Vertigo
¿Dónde está?
It's everything I wish I didn't know
Except you give me something I can feel
Feel
The night is full of holes
These bullets rip the sky
Of ink with gold
They twinkle
As the boys play rock and roll
They know that they can't dance
At least they know
I can't stand the beats
I'm asking for the check
Girl with crimson nails
Has Jesus 'round her neck
Swinging to the music
Swinging to the music
Hello, hello
¡Hola!
I'm at a place called Vertigo
¿Dónde está?
everything I wish I didn't know
But you give me something I can feel
Feel
Shot dead
Shots fall
Show me, yeah
All of this, all of this can be yours
All of this, all of this can be yours
All of this, all of this can be yours
Just give me what I want
And no one gets hurt
Hello, hello
¡Hola!
We’re at a place called Vertigo
¿Dónde está?
lights go down and all I know
Is that you give me something
I can feel your love teaching me how
Your love is teaching me how
How to kneel
Kneel
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

A Veces, La Vida Es Una Mierda (Sometimes, Life Is A Pile of Shit).

It's very early Sunday morning, and I am livid and upset! F**K MAN! Just hours ago Saturday evening, my toilet got clogged and overflooded, my mother screamed her lungs out at me for the mess, the cleanup effort was a nightmare, traffic on the freeway was horrendous, my pants are now a wrinkled mess thanks to having to wait for someone else's clothes to finish in the dryer, and this nonstop RAIN are all enough and then some to drive me up the wall! I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE!! That one weekend of rain back in January was enough, and now we're in the middle of another endless rainstorm! ARGH!!! Haven't we had enough f**ckin' rain??!!!

I'm whining, I'm pissed, depressed, upset, and am finally going to bed now close to 5a.m.

At least I got to see Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind on DVD in between all my rage and it was a pretty good movie.

'Cause this is THRILLER! EEK!

My once-childhood idol is now a certifiable weirdo. But is he a child molester?! God, I really hope not. I really do. But with all the accusations and his behavior/appearance, it's hard not to wonder.

Back to the grind. Of my teeth?

O.k. so my trial is over. An unfortunate drunk man fell to his death trying to get off an MTA bus hitting the back of his head on the concrete below. The plaintiff felt the driver and the MTA were responsible, thus was seeking monetary compensation.

This case had frivolous lawsuit written all over it, and some of my fellow jurors felt that way from beginning to end, but as I heard the human story behind it, and the loss of this human being, I felt very sympathetic and emotional about the whole situation. I was disgusted at the imcompetent plaintiff lawyer whom at times did have some bright moments where he shone through, totally turned on by one of the expert witnesses (a handsome older man who caught my attention BIG TIME!), and really disappointed and disheartened by the racism and prejudice of some of the jurors in their decision only because the man killed and his girlfriend were illegal Mexican immigrants.

In the end, the unanimous vote was to not blame the driver nor the MTA for this terrible accident, it just happened to be an unfortunate mistake the drunken man made in his alcoholic state as he misstepped off the bus. The evidence proved it so. I came out of there a sad man, not wanting to be as judgmental (as some of my other fellow disgusting jurors were) about the fact he was drunk and that it "WAS HIS FAULT" that he died.

We all make mistakes. And sometimes, we pay for them dearly. Personal responsibility is a very important forgotten concept nowadays. For the most part, we are who we've chosen to be.

Till judgment day...adieu.

To The Finish Line!

My jury duty is almost over. We've reached the deliberation part of the case. I must say however, I've gotten spoiled now in this week and a half away from work. Listening to testimony can be boring at times, but it sure beats being at work! Downtown L.A. is quite beautiful and there's lots to see and do. Those of us that live in the suburbs or the Valley should really appreciate it more often as it really is a true rich cultural center with lots to offer.

I am happy to rediscover my hometown this way.

Almodóvar astonishes us yet again!

I just went to see La mala educación (Bad Education), another stunningly captivating bizarre film by Spain's crazy director, Pedro Almodóvar. I was so confused, and yet in the end it all made sense. Thank you again to Mexico's (and possibly the world's) finest living young actor Gael García Bernal for yet another amazing performance in this most intriguing film. This guy's movies never disappoint!

Some reviews:

http://www.rottentomatoes.com/m/bad_education/?bc=42

A heartfelt thought.

A friend of mine lost his mother to cancer this past week. All my thoughts and prayers go out to his family at this difficult time.

Mrs. Fong, you're in good hands now, the gracious loving hands of God.

R.I.P.

UPDATE!!! WE GOT LINKS! NOT THE SAUSAGE KIND THOUGH.

I finally figured out how to add links of interest to my blog! Scroll down and look to the right side below ARCHIVES list. VOILA!

More links to come...

DOOM & GLOOM

I hate to be the bearer of more bad news, but gay/bisexual men who use hardcore drugs and have unprotected anal sex are really risking it. WE GOTTA WAKE UP MAN! THIS IS SOME SCARY SHIT! JESUS!

http://www.bloomberg.com/apps/news?pid=10000103&sid=azBO_AumTJhs

http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/medicalnews.php?newsid=19637

Food for lots of thought, huh?

Truly eerie man. Really.

http://www.coasttocoastam.com/gen/page818.html

"So much to do, and so little time." - Jack Nicholson as THE JOKER.

O.k. Let's see if I can actually recap all the shit that is going on.

North Korea and their midget psychopathic dictator came clean that OH YES they can annihilate us with their nukes, the U.S. is threatening Iran to stop making atomic warfare, Prince Charles (DUMBO) is finally marrying that nasty buck-toothed Afghan Hound Camilla Parker Bowles whom he always loved above and beyond Princess Diana, Michael Jackson is on trial for boy probing (Corey Feldman too perhaps? If he can remember!), Bill Cosby is being accused of female fondling, American Idol is admittedly and embarassingly entertaining, Condy Rice is now Superstar Secretary O' State, Israel and Palestine agreed to a truce(short-lived for sure), cancer now kills more Americans than heart disease, Iraq is still WARHELL, and last but not least:

I am still alive. Thank God.

I know I forgot something but oh well. Till next time.

Doing my civic duty.

O.k. this jury duty thingy ain't so bad after all. Now that I've been chosen on this case, it's a little more laid-back and with all the breaks and extra long lunch break, it's a pretty good deal. The traffic from the Valley into Downtown L.A. and on the way back home however is a different story. DEAR CHRIST ALMIGHTY.

UGH! UGH!

I thought doing jury duty would be more fulfilling and/or exciting than my current dead-end trabajo, but I'm bored to tears! The case I've been assigned is excrutiatingly annoying. I can't say more. Hoping to get out of it, but who knows? I'm writing this from the Superior Court itself. Gotta run!

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORING!

I've had one of those very apathetic lethargic weeks where I feel as though I'm going nowhere nor accomplishing anything in my life. I haven't been to the gym in two months or so now, my job has reached a horrid dead end, and I find myself living vicariously through the experiences of others and wondering, "WHY HAVEN'T I TRIED THAT?" or "WHAT THA HELL AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE?"

Sad to be 30 years old and not know my purpose on this planet. Really sad. I need friends and company right now more than ever...

AH YES, POLITICAL CARTOONS!

It's more like a vacation.

Lest anyone think Martha Stewart's current prison gig is unjust, the bitch has got it made once she gets out sometime soon, and I say, more power to her!

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/6902108/

It's Groundhog Day, so effin' what?!

So much to write and talk about, I don't even know where to begin, or if to EVEN begin. I keep exposing my blog to more and more of my friends, at the risk of having them know more of my personal details than I would like them to! But that's the point of the whole thing isn't it?

Elections were just held in Iraq, and they're calling it a success, although that's almost debatable and laughable due to the fact that suicide bombers still killed several voters and a huge amount of potential voters stayed home due to the threats. Our whole purpose in Iraq sounds good, an ideal dream of establishing a true democracy in the middle of such a hornet's nest, but the cost and sacrifice is so great. I guess we wouldn't have won WWII, had we not believed in the cause then huh? Michael Moore and crew of course, would be up for arguing with me on that one I'm sure.

My stomach recently turned last week at having to listen to a fellow ex-Soviet co-worker here doubt the deserved merits of the United States of America and its role in having defeated Nazism and the evil Japanese Empire during WWII. The sheer and utter nerve of the bitch to claim it was the Soviets who saved the day! Sure, they did help in stopping the Nazis and rounding lots of them up, but only because the Germans invaded Russian territory! It was an obvious defense move and in part it was thanks to America that victory was even possible! It makes me cringe that we have so many immigrants to this country that do not appreciate or give this country credit for the things it has done for the world and its citizens. Yes, we are from perfect, and many mistakes have been and continue to be committed, but for the most part, I believe in this country wholeheartedly, despite its current atrocious anti-gay policies. Call me a naive patriot or a foolish moron, but anyone who does not thank their lucky stars that they're living in the greatest land on Earth due to all the heroic and valiant men and women who gave up their lives for true causes deserve Darth Vader's quote from the original Star Wars film, "You are part of a Rebel Alliance and a traitor!"

I'm in a lustful mood again, but what else is new? I'm drawing a blank as to what else to mention in this entry, so if anything else occurs to me...

The power of love BABY!

A moving story of life and death, of what really matters in this world...

http://www.latimes.com/news/local/la-me-message29jan29,0,6411024.story?coll=la-home-headlines

It's just too sad...

A most devastating event, which has left us contemplating the immense value of life...

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Glendale_train_crash

God bless...

THE FRIGHTENING ASPECTS OF TERRORISM

Bravo to PBS last night for this informative and eye-opening account about the current state of fundamentalist terrorists and their scary grip on Europe at this time. Whether you agree with the war in Iraq or not, this show is a must-see! I'm hoping they'll rerun it sometime soon. But in the meantime, this very thorough and informative webpage:

http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/pages/frontline/shows/front/

GOD BLESS AMERICA!

AN ACTUAL PHOTO OF THE HIDEOUS CREATURE!!!
--But seriously, this is part of an amateur photo shoot I did on Monday, which took me to realms I'd never been to before...

7 Up Yours!

Johnny Carson's passed away, and yet I had one of the funnest most amazing weekends ever! Which is why death sucks, because it robs us of such incredible moments, and life is so full of them!

I did some moderate drinking, lots of dancing (KUDOS to the FACTORY club this past Sauturday night for the extraordinary DJ and music), some screwing, and a photo session which turned out to be interesting to say the least! AHEM!

Whoa! Will ya look at the time? Life rocks man, I'm on a high right now, which I wish I did not have to come down from...

My friend hath demonstrated this device to me last night. I am in awe. This is one of the most amazing inventions I have ever had the fortune of living to see, as when I first witnessed the Internet back in 1996. I will eventually get one as I continue learning more about it. WOW!

Christian freaks must love picturing Mr. Squarepants in all kinds of gay sex postions to further their cause. WHO ARE THE REAL PERVERTS THEN?!

Ah, gotta love the Christian Right...NOT!

More vicious ridiculous accusations from "morally righteous" people living in this country! Now they're attacking SpongeBob Squarepants as corrupt for children. GIMME A F**KIN' BREAK! They are looking for gayness where it does not even exist! WHAT A BUNCH OF CLOWNS!

http://www.cnn.com/2005/SHOWBIZ/TV/01/20/sponge.bob.reut/index.html
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/6852828/

I can't believe it. When are people gonna stop persecuting and picking on gays? What is the big deal?! The big crime?! Who are these so-called "correct heterosexuals" and what gives them the right to judge and constantly point fingers at the "chosen" lifestyle of homosexuality? These intolerant assholes need to be rounded up and shot. Gays and lesbians are in our lives whether these Neanderthals like it or not: in our families, communities, jobs, businesses, and society as a whole. This endless display of narrowmindedness irks tha hell out of me, as they try to always find something gay and wrong in everything! OH, WE'RE DOING IT TO PROTECT OUR CHILDREN!!! FROM WHAT??!! You raise them to be heterosexual and accept it as right, yet exposing them to homosexuality is sinful and wrong? How does that type of reasoning even make sense, when the vast majority if not all of homosexuality is biological. Their nauseating motto: IT IS A CHOICE makes me cringe. Cringe for those sad lonely gay guys and lesbian girls out there who would rather kill themselves or hide their sexuality from these evil hatemongerers for fear of being discovered for their true unchosen nature. No wonder Mike Piazza, Kevin Spacey, and Ricky Martin have to live in this denial. Who can blame them with all this hypocrisy and disgusting behavior?

I happen to be Christian in my beliefs, and my gut feeling tells me Jesus is very displeased at the vile intolerance and sick hatred of these Fundamentalist Kooks. There is no justification or excuse for the relentless persecution, name-calling, and the taking of rights of the homosexual community such as that being displayed in this country right now. I don't want to hate George W. Bush as much as most liberals in America do right now, but HE TOO is in the same boat with these homophobic assholes by supporting an ammendment banning gay marriage. And for that reason alone, I could not vote him back into office, because he, along with all his supporters make me sad and angry that their closed-mindedness does not let them see past all the triviality and just love their fellow human being for who he/she may be.

It's time to stop judging your gay brethren America. Remember the words of our Lord, "Let he that is without sin, cast the first stone." What an individual does with his/her crotch is their business alone and no one else's. Yet this constant witchhunt and putrid hatred of gays and their rights solidifies my viewpoint that the only true perverts and degenerates are the intolerant homophobic Fundamentalist Christians themselves for constantly devising, imagining, and fabricating stories to support their evil "fag-hating" agenda.

SHAME ON YOU, AND MAY GOD FORGIVE YOU WHEN IT IS YOU WHO FINDS YOURSELF AT THE GATES OF HELL FOR HAVING HATED AND PERSECUTED YOUR GAY BROTHER/SISTER IN THIS LIFE. JUST YOU WAIT, YOU'RE THE ONES IN FOR A BIG SURPRISE.

SAY WHAT??!!@#$!@%

Mike Piazza is getting married?! I hate to project homosexuality onto others, but I do believe he's only getting married to cover the truth. Ahem!

http://www.nydailynews.com/front/story/272728p-233495c.html

That's my bud Sonny on the left. He's from New York City. Don't mess with him, or he'll stick his foot up your ass.

A pic taken of me this past Sunday. Yes, I am a bit drunk, hanging out at one of my fav bars. I need some color! EEW!

Ch-Ch-Ch-Check it out!

God, I just heard of a woman and these boys that drowned in some creek somewhere locally. THAT IS HORRIBLE! UGH! Death rears its ugly head once again.

Well, I had an interesting weekend full of errands, lascivious encounters, sleeping, drinking, and hanging out at some of my old watering holes. Some way to honor Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. and his legacy huh?

It was back to work today, and although all of us here would've wished for yet another day off, it was not meant to be. Alas, my time away from here means so much to me: my evenings with my buddies, my time to unwind, watching TV, chatting on the phone, or just surfing the net.

I realized last Thursday, that I do love my family, I saw an aunt and cousin of mine visiting from EL SALVADOREELAND that I had not seen in about nine years! I say I realized I loved them, because I have always wanted to be away from them, due to the fact that it's hard for me to be open to them about my current sexuality issues. My aunt Amanda almost cried, she thinks I look like my deceased father (her brother) now more than ever. What can I say, we turn into our parents eventually they say, whether we like it or not. My father was not a great man, but he was a good man, plagued by many demons and addictions. He was a wonderful son, a loyal friend, a shitty lover, and tyrannical distant father, but nonetheless, I miss him terribly. He's been gone now for three years, and it still hurts me to have had him taken from us a la John Lennon. I even had a nightmare of the scenario just last week, and I woke up in tears.

Such a senseless ridiculous way to go for a man whom I think was really trying to redeem himself as he got older. And life goes on, but not without this great scar upon my heart...

I just saw "Troy" on DVD. Good decent film, fine acting, sad ending, and Jennifer Aniston not wanting to have William Bradley Pitt's child must be insane.

Calgon take me away!

The mudslide situation in La Conchita keeps getting worse with more buried dead being found daily. So disheartening...

I'm taking one of my many mental breaks from work right now. I always wonder how revealing I should be in this blog about my private and personal life. Should I consider this a diary, or just a general place to voice objective opinions? I mean, my co-worker William has now read stuff about me which quite frankly is pretty embarassing. YA READING THIS LORD? I would hope that he doesn't care or see too much into it, and just takes it for what it's worth. Just plain honesty. And that's what I attempt to do with this blog, to just be honest with what I'm thinking and how I feel.

Anyhoots, I thought I may have pissed my bud David Monday for being so blunt and harsh about him being just as slutty if not more so than me in front of his current boyfriend Sonny! I mean please ladies and gentlemen, I know I have my fair share of sexual fun, but David is still KING. Or would that be Johnny? Hmmm...this gay world is so hard to live in sometimes. We are all basically good people, and as men, promiscuity comes naturally and very easily, something to really watch out for due to the multitude of STDs out there. I find STD's to be life's cruel joke on those who want to sexually appreciate and enjoy others. I'd much rather have people f**king than killing each other, yet the consequences of enjoying another's body could be something as annoying as a case of crabs or as deadly as the HIV virus. And that is so sad and UNFAIR! Why punish humanity for wanting to enjoy a basic delicious and soothing biological need like sex? Alas, keep using those condoms folks! The reality is, ya can't screw so many or even one sole partner unprotected with so much to worry about out there.

Life is a strange journey. It's full of so many wonderful blessings and tarnished by sad cruel moments too, yet ironically, they all seem to be worth living through. Weird man. Just weird.

Blame it on the rain.

I knew all this rain would bring nothing but problems, this season now stands as the wettest ever in L.A. history! It's finally sunny today here, but the damage from this four-day deluge is done and tremendous.

We've had a horrible tragedy, a type of mini-tsunami here in Southern California:

FROM CNN:

Rescuers search for missing in mudslide
Four dead, up to 22 feared trapped in California

LA CONCHITA, California (CNN) -- Rescue crews on Tuesday searched for as many as 22 people who may be trapped in Southern California mudslides that have already claimed four lives.
Search crews concentrated on one area where earlier they had picked up an audible "hit" with sophisticated search equipment.
"We have sound sensors placed in the debris, and that's what's led us to the people that we've recovered from that debris field," said Bob Brooks with the Ventura County Sheriff's Department, referring to the nine survivors who were pulled from the morass left by Monday's slide.
Tuesday morning, rescuers concentrated on a site where a mother and her three children are believed to be trapped. Listening devices picked up a signal from that area late Monday and again early Tuesday, officials said.
"The father is currently in utter distress, trying to give us an idea of where his family might be," said Ventura County firefighter Garrett Pater, adding that the soil is extremely saturated and has the consistency of clay.
"It's heavy, heavy clay, so you have that and [you have to] take into consideration that you have had eight to 15 houses sliding into each other and on top of each other," Pater said.
Officials gave conflicting figures for the number of missing after the mudslide. Ventura County Fire Chief Bob Roper reported 12 people missing, but the sheriff's department says 22 people are unaccounted for. Witnesses reported seeing 30 to 40 people swept under the wave of mud.
Keith Mashburn, the fire department's chief investigator, said all three fatalities were adult males.
Authorities have blamed the landslides and flooding on five days of heavy rain, which have resulted in about a dozen deaths in southern California.
In San Marcos Pass, not far from Santa Barbara, nearly 24 inches of rain have fallen since Thursday.
Officials said almost 10 inches of rain had fallen since Friday in areas that included Beverly Hills, Santa Monica and the San Fernando Valley. Downtown Los Angeles received 3.5 inches by late Monday.
The search was called off for a few hours overnight as more rain threatened to bring down more of the mountain, but more than 160 rescue workers resumed their work as soon as it was safe.
'Entire mountainside just come down'
Monday's large mudslide came shortly before 1:30 p.m. (4:30 p.m. ET), several hours after a smaller mudslide overnight left one of the main highways impassable to the north and flooding blocked the road to the south, which meant more residents and children were at home than on a typical day.
After the smaller mudslide, authorities began evacuating residents of La Conchita, northwest of Los Angeles. About 100 people had left before the second wave sluiced down the normally picturesque mountain above the community.
"I stepped outside my door and heard a noise, almost like a pop," said resident Bill Harbison, who helped rescue two women trapped in the mudslide. "I looked up and I saw the entire mountainside just come down and just race through part of our little town here."
"I could hear them. They were buried beneath just an unbelievable amount of wreckage, broken glass, live power lines." he said. (Full story)
Video of the mudslide showed a large portion of a towering bluff break off and then rumble down the hill toward the town, carrying trees, power lines and thick mud into homes below. Several cars were crushed, and a bus was tossed into one of the homes.
As the mudslide began, one man shouted, "Get out of here!" Another yelled, "It's coming down!" Residents then frantically ran into the streets, and some quickly helped in rescue efforts.
As rescuers work to find more survivors, they're keeping an anxious eye on the surrounding hillsides, with more rain forecast for Tuesday.
"There's a crevice that goes along the face. The geologists are saying it's very dangerous at this point, the rain makes it more so," Brooks told CNN.
Dry weather was forecast for Wednesday.
Barrier no match for mudslide
In 1995, La Conchita was hit by a large mudslide that caused heavy damage. A barrier wall had been built to help protect the town, but the wall appeared to be completely covered in Monday's mudslide.
"The retaining wall that's there is very inefficient. It's a small portion of the debris field itself," Brooks said. "When you look at the volume -- I think in '95 when they had the last slide, they were talking about 600,000 tons of sand and mud coming down -- there's really nothing that can stop something of that magnitude. It's almost completely a sheer cliff."

South of Los Angeles, authorities Tuesday began evacuating residents of a mobile home park in San Juan Capistrano after rising floodwaters in the San Juan Creek carried away part of the creek's concrete bank.
Assistant City Manager Bill Huber said city crews were placing large boulders and dirt into piles to shore up the levy wall.
"The floodwaters doubled in height and speed last night and the crews couldn't keep up with it," he said.
Officials closed three schools for the day so residents of the mobile home park could be evacuated to a gymnasium shared by the schools.
The city is best known for its two-month-long Swallows Festival, held to mark the return of the birds around March 19 of each year, according to the city's Web site.

WHAT IS THIS?! EFFIN' SEATTLE?

Rain, rain, and more rain. UGH! We're L.A. man, not that wet shithole Seattle. Why all this rain? The Earth's weather is f**ked up somehow. I know it.


Tonight: Windy with periods of rain. Low 48F. Winds SSE at 20 to 30 mph. Chance of rain 90%. Rainfall around a half an inch.

Tomorrow: Windy. A steady rain. The rain may be heavy at times early. High 56F. Winds S at 25 to 35 mph. Rainfall may reach one inch.

Tomorrow night: A steady rain in the evening. Showers continuing late. Low 49F. Winds S at 5 to 10 mph. Chance of rain 80%. Rainfall near a quarter of an inch.

Sunday: Periods of rain. High around 60F. Winds S at 5 to 10 mph. Chance of rain 90%. Rainfall around a quarter of an inch.

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I AM NOT TOO HAPPY RIGHT NOW

I lost my $300 four month old or so glasses in New Orleans, I have been tired as hell all week, and now this morning coming into work, I drove past this parked truck which I thought I had enough room to go by, and as it turns out, I knocked my right side mirror out! ARGH! I AM SO F**KIN' PISSED RIGHT NOW! I can only hope now that THAT asshole I had problems with at work last month dies or gets kicked out of this office to make me happy. Imma hella of a nice guy, but when I'm this upset, I'm a real prick and highly evil.

Happy Freakin' New Year.

Before I get some shut-eye...

I don't want to forget to mention the one thing about my just recent trip to New Orleans that will most stay with me till the day I die. At about 11:45 p.m. New Year's Eve, my good buddy David and I were hungry enough to go get a bite to eat at the Clover Grill, a nice little hole in the wall burger/American diner joint in the French Quarter that faces a very busy bar.

We got our burgers served fast by a very friendly staff and they were delicious to say the least, but just as midnight hit, there we were, with a couple of other people and we all joyously and happily welcomed in the New Year as the main cook proceeded to give us all a hug.

A simple, yet memorable welcome to 2005, there with my good friend whom I love to death, without the alcohol, without the great big crowd, without all the fanfare, and much emotion.

I know, corny, but true :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR! Ed Norton rocks in this photo!!!

BACK TO THE GRIND! UGH!

I'm sad. I just got back from New Orleans yesterday, and despite a slight case of annoying laryngitis, I had a blast! New Orleans is still the decadent, drinking, partying, sex-ridden, gambling, all-night cesspool that I remember from last year! We got to stay at a wonderful beautiful hotel on Bourbon St. called the Royal Sonesta for a pretty good deal! http://www.sonesta.com/neworleans_royal/

David and I did lots of walking and I was amazed at the amount of drinking I did and how well I was able to handle it! I met so many nice people and unfortunately some very rude ones who seem to hate L.A. What is it with people from other parts of this country that hate Los Angeles? Is it jealousy? True disgust? I dunno, but I was quite surprised and upset about that. I was happy to tell several people off for dumping on my hometown.

My buddy David (whom I went with) took his video camera and was hilariously stopping people on the street New Year's Eve tricking them into hollering into the camera for our upcoming "NEW ORLEANS GONE WILD DVD". To say we got some crazy ridiculous hilarious footage is an understatement! Thanks to Vincent, a Joe Pesci clone, who was with us at the time, we got some very funny stuff on tape.

I got more to say, but I am surrounded by co-workers talking to me right now. GOD HELP those devastated people in Southeast Asia. When all is said and done, they say the total dead will be about 400,000. THAT IS BEYOND COMPREHENSION.

Gotta go! Till later! And Happy New Year. So one hopes...

Now that Xmas is gone...

So Xmas this year kind of sucked in that I ended up getting sick. I'd been sneezing all last week, and come Thursday night, I felt harrible! Ginger tea has been helping tremendously all weekend, but even today Monday I still feel a little bit of the cold in my throat and chest. I guess I should look at this as a blessing...better to get sick now than later, I leave to New Orleans for New Year's this very Thursday! I am a little jittery to be honest. Excitement and some nerves all rolled up into one!

I am stunned as is the world, over this 9.0 quake that caused tidal waves and has now claimed some 25,000 lives in Southeast Asia. That is not even possible is it?! WOW!!! That is too sad. The quake was so strong that according to scientists, it has knocked the Earth out of its normal rotation. UNFREAKIN'BELIEVABLE!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2004_Indian_Ocean_earthquake

Xmas is coming, Xmas is coming! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

So, even though I don't really like Christmas, I got into the spirit by putting up our tree. How sweet! If only I can get my shopping started and done soon, I'll be just dandy! EEK!

It's official! I have bought my airline ticket online to spend New Year's Eve in New Orleans! WOOHOO! David's coming along, we were kind of upset that our buddy Johnny flaked on us at the last minute, but it was expected. HO HUM! We really really wanted Johnny to come along, he would've had a great time in the Big Easy. I leave Thursday morning, Dec. 30th and won't return hopefully till Monday, Jan. 3rd. I pray and hope our plane flights go well. I HATE FLYING, BUT HOW ELSE DO I GET TO MY DESTINATION RIGHT??!! UGH!

Gotta go back to work, or pretend to...

As The World Turns

It has gotten so cold here in LA, and so much earlier than normal too! Work is work and last night, I spent it with my ambiguous co-worker William trying to lend an ear to his just failed relationship with some bitch at work. The more and more I listened to his pain, the more and more my crush on him grew. And he must know, for he prick teases me all the time. He was even open to going to a gay bar last night and hanging out. My friends David and Sonny think he is straight for now, but open to the idea of going gay eventually, if not now. GULP! I feel so comfortable around him, and yet nervous too. It's the weirdest feeling. Last weekend, we all hung out together too, went to a strip bar with fully naked chicks! IT WAS SO MUCH FUN! And we also went to see "ALEXANDER" a most homosexual movie indeed.

Thanksgiving is over with, now it's on to Christmas and New Year's. If I don't buy a plane ticket to New Orleans this coming week, I'll have to stay in LA for the New Year, and I don't want to.

Nada más pasándola

A few words to share. I’ve missed three concerts as of late, Morrissey, Café Tacuba, and Green Day, only three of my favorite music artists. BUMMER! I’ve been caught up with work, gym, and my own chores and crap that I totally let time go by on me. It has just flown right on by without stopping for li’l ole’ me. It’s true! Time waits or stops for no one!

I saw House of Sand and Fog, Don’t Tempt Me and Full Metal Jacket this past weekend. House of…is very depressing and frustrating to sit through, Don’t Tempt Me is a witty charming movie from Spain with Penélope Cruz, Gael García Bernal, and Victoria Abril in a very witty comedy about Heaven vs. Hell. And of course, there’s Full Metal…with the most captivating boot camp set of scenes ever put on film. I still have Once Upon a Time in Mexico and Amélie to watch on DVD. So hopefully I can do that during the upcoming Thanksgiving weekend.

And it looks as though we’re buying our airline tickets to New Orleans soon, hopefully the price starts to come down as it has been royally expensive! The boy I like is ignoring me, but my sex partners only seem to get steamier and better. Thank God for giving me some looks.

GOOD NEWS!

Let's see, Yasser Arafat has kicked the bucket, and Scott Peterson has been convicted of cold-blooded murder! Can it get any better? WOOHOO! I get so happy when scum finally dies or is removed from society. Although to be quite honest, I feel so bad for Laci Peterson's family. That is so sad. So sad...

The world is yours...

That's a line right out of "Scarface" I believe, where Al Pacino stares intently at a blimp with those very words going across it. I do feel I have the power to do anything and achieve so much, and yet, all I want to do once I leave work today is lay down and take a long nap! GO FIGURE! I don't think it's because I'm lazy, it's only because it's hard to stare into a computer screen, type away, and answer phones for 8 hours a day! It's mentally tiring I should say.

I am excited at the possibility of having found a new cool guy to hang out with and perhaps discuss Shakespeare with! AHEM! Yes, that's it. SHAKESPEARE! Now if only I can get rid of this allergy/cold, my upcoming days off will be a treat! Wish I were going somewhere to speak of, but there is always New Orleans for New Year's Eve. Hopefully.

Um, he's still president?!

Alright. I know there's lots of disappointed people out there. We're just gonna have to deal with Bushy four more years. He is our president after all, and we gotta stand behind him and support him as much as possible...until free speech, abortion, and gay rights are eliminated. GULP!

Election Day Hath Arrived

Well, it's here kids! The day that "we the people" choose our leader! Or so we've been lead to believe! AHEM! I had to vote for John Kerry, my conscience would not allow me to vote for George Bush who is a Bible-thumping freak and hates gays. I do like the fact he'll kill terrorists, but I'm sure Kerry will do the same when push comes to shove. The whole world is watching this, after all, what happens here affects everybody everywhere. We're the modern day Roman Empire folks! Plan and simple.

Halloween was cool, went to a club that featured predominantly shirtless gay men on ecstasy! I was hoping my co-worker Lord William would join Leslie and myself, but he flaked out last minute to go pursue other adventures. Whatever those may be! QUACK QUACK QUACK as the Howard Stern Show sound effect goes.

We're on pins and needles here, waiting for this election night to be done with. Sure hope enough people get laid while waiting for the returns, which reminds me, what did I do for lunch today hmmm? HEEHEEHEE!

The Beatles' music makes me happy

So Osama Bin Pussyass comes out with yet another tape warning us and talking shit. What a ridiculous individual, with so much money only looking to kill and destroy, instead of helping out.

Halloween is tomorrow, but my friends and I are gonna go out and start celebrating tonight. Planning this year's trip to New Orleans for New Year's is very very difficult. Airfare is not cheap this time around, and coordinating our flight times is just as complicated. Oh well. I'm sure we'll figure it out. Time to change the time once again. At least we gain and extra hour of sleep. Or partying. However you want to look at it.

Just some quick words before I leave work...

I had such a shitty day yesterday. I didn't feel well at all, but I stuck it through at work. I thought I'd be blowing chunks or something. I felt edgy and nauseous. Today I felt fine however! WOOHOO! Boy we had some serious amount of rain here in the past week, I do predict a very wet season. Look for hillsides, streets, and trees to be washing up and all over Southern Cali this fall and winter. HALLOWEEN is just around the corner. I still don't know what specifically I'm doing, but it is getting darker, which means the time change is just about here. Café Tacuba is in town on November 22nd! I cannot wait to see these guys live! I've been a big fan of theirs ever since their first album came out back in 1992 I believe. These guys are the Mexican Beatles...they play any and all kinds of music genres and their songwriting is first-rate unlike Maná, which kept putting out the same kind of tired typical basic rock song. Green Day's new album is a musical delight to the ears as is the Beastie Boys' latest too. I love music man. It gives me new life, when I feel I have none left.

Sweet Friday

I cannot thank my lucky stars enough that it's Friday yet again! And we're finally in the fall season, which is my favorite of the entire year! I love Halloween despite the fact I keep hearing it's Satan's holiday! Something about scary movies, costumes, and the whole atmosphere makes it such a cool holiday. I prefer it way more than Christmas, with it's freakin' gifts, crowded shopping malls, and annoying holiday songs! LONG LIVE HALLOWEEN! WOOHOO!

I have a brand new spankin' cell phone with great long-lasting battery power, I'm gonna vote for Kerry hoping he'll kill sand dwellers a la Bush without hating the gays like him, sadly my aunt goes back to El Salvador tonite, and I've been a bad boy in that I haven't gone to the gym in almost three weeks now. And so the fast pace of this my life rolls on and on...

Film at its finest

Saturday night, I went to see an immensely enjoyable, educational, and wonderful piece of filmmaking called, The Motorcycle Diaries. I was much more impressed than I thought I would be, as was my friend Michael who along with me raved about the film. Gael García Bernal continues to astound me as a young Mexican actor with nothing but promising film roles in his future. I just hope that when he finally does start making Hollywood films in English (like Antonio Banderas who got lost in Hollywood crap unfortunately after brilliant films in Spain) that he gets wonderful roles and doesn't stop making incredible thought-provoking films like he has been these past few years in Spain and Latin America. García Bernal is wonderful as a young Ché Guevara (yes, that very one) who along with his friend go on a wild life-changing trip throughout South America. Not only does it expand their horizons and views of the world, but also the viewer's, and I found myself totally engrossed in these characters and their very many outrageous, yet poignant adventures. It is the best film I have seen all year so far, and it was subtitled in English! It helps that I know Spanish, but I think people of any culture or language background would enjoy this movie. IT KICKS MAJOR ASS BABY! Gael has also been in some good stuff before, notably: Amores Perros, Y Tu Mamá También, and El Crimen del Padre Amaro. Don't forget folks, The Motorcycle Diaries, now playing at an independent or some major theater near you!

DAS IS FULL O' SHITTEN!

Let's face it. I am now at a stagnant job working with an unbelievably heinous aggressive woman from Thailand whom I told off so harshly yesterday, that from now on, she will pray for me to go to hell when she goes to church on Sundays. Yes, she quite literally said that. And oh yeah, then there's the other prick who supplies us with the office material, he not only has a bad attitude, he doesn't like to shower frequently either. AM I IN A GOVERNMENT JOB SURROUNDED BY A BUNCH OF STUPID ASS BEATCHES AND JERKS OR WHAT???!!! UGH! And I blame myself for this, for not continuing to go to school, for not applying to a decent job which would honor and uphold my skills as an educated person. WHAT THE F**K am I still doing here??!! I am better than this! I KNOW I AM. And it irks me that I have let fear, this insidious fear of risk-taking stop me from pursuing and realizing my full potential!! So here I am now, suffering the consequences of underachievement, working in this government job which started out just dandy and has turned into a quagmire, where I have to put up with the multiple personalities, mental disorders, poor English skills, and shitty attitudes of others! IS IT JUST THIS JOB, OR ARE ALL JOBS FULL OF SO MANY PRICKS???! God, I know it can't be me, I can't be the prick, I make people laugh way too often to be a problem. Needless to say, I am disappointed right now. Not because I do not have DSL, but because of something valid! That was an inside joke by the way. This is so discouraging. What am I gonna do to take action? I gotta do something. Or just keep my mouth shut and continue to take it like a man. Thank God it's the weekend...

The horror continues...

We are in a nightmare situation in Iraq. It's devastating to hear two more innocent American civilians were beheaded! I had a co-worker of mine with a stronger disposition view the video of Mr. Armstrong's execution and he said it was horribly gruesome. Watching Nick Berg's video was enough for me, but to hear his description alone was enough to turn my stomach. We all furiously and unequivocally agree, these brutal beheadings have got to stop! ENOUGH ALREADY! What is our government doing now to stop this shit? We need to bomb the hell out of Fallujah and these other rebellious strongholds and send a clear message that this kind of behavior has gotta stop! Bush has no idea how to stop this killing, and what is Kerry going to do if he's elected? I feel as though both candidates now suck! THIS IS REALLY GETTING TO ME NOW FOLKS! We're less than two months away from a major presidential election! This is the BIG TIME! We've got a shitty economy, a shitty war, and a shitty outlook here. BLAH! I'm only 30, and the world has gone mad!

Ees Tuesday!

Waiting for lunch right now, so I'm killing time. I bought more CD's through Amazon.com last week. ELO, The Moody Blues, 311 (NICK HEXUM...what a babe man!), Journey, John Lennon, Heart, and Mott the Hoople. I think I bought something else in that eclectic mix of artists, but I can't remember right now. I cannot believe how obsessed with music I am. I only know two or three other people like myself, including my best bud, now San Diego transplant Angie. I live for a good album, or song, no matter what genre, but I usually prefer rock and pop, especially from the British. Most of the music I listen to now was recorded decades ago anyway, since most of the music coming out today is full of mindless forgettable singles. Hard to find a good complete artistic album anymore, which is truly truly sad!

I need to go to the gym today. It is imperative that I do, since I haven't been in about two weeks, and I need to sweat out all the negative stuff. My friend David leaves for Florida this week for his sister's wedding and then it's on to Memphis to say goodbye to an old friend who may be dying from a horrible terminal illness. On top of this, there's a hurricane headed straight for the Floridian panhandle, which is where David's going. I dunno how that's gonna work out and if there's even gonna be a wedding after Ivan comes through. Here's hoping it all works out for the best within the next 48 hours or so. YIKES! I think my lunch hour is here. Iraq still sucks by the way. And we're less than two months from a major presidential election. GOD HELP US.

ONLY NOW DO YOU REALIZE THAT ISLAMIST TERRORISTS ARE EVIL?

The Russian school massacre by those sand people last week was horrible! HORRIBLE! No question. What pisses me off though, is that some of the Armenian community here at work have circulated an email calling for the death of Muslims for their atrocities. Well HELLO!!! It only took this incident last week for y'all to show some disgust or political activity? I've been screaming at the top of my lungs and upset since 9/11/01 when they struck the World Trade Center and the Pentagon! It's been three years since those sickos got us good, and I have nothing but contempt for that religion and the people who so fundamentally practice it. Say what you will about President Bush, he does not hesitate when it comes to killing these terrorist pigs! I just pray and hope John Kerry is just as militant, for these sand-dwelling murderers do not understand treaties or agreements, only grenades and shotguns up their bungholes. They must die. Israel has long suffered their killing, the first WTC bombing in '93, the embassies in Africa, the USS Cole, 9/11, the bombing in Bali, terrorism in Iraq, the Russian planes, the school in Russia...how much more proof do you kids need that we are indeed in a full-scale war against enemies of all that is free and good?

In other news, I went to Santa Barbara on Saturday. Still beautiful, lots of dogs, hotties, and plenty of sun. Aaaaaaaaaahhhh...this is life in the good ole' USA. Here's hoping Florida doesn't get Hurricane #3 soon.

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

Ugh. I am so sleepy right now. It's almost lunch time and I have lots and lots of work, but absolutely no energy! At least the weekend is almost here thank God. And it's Labor Day weekend too, which is cool. My mom and family wanna go to Santa Barbara on Sunday, I'd prefer to go Saturday, but my mother says she has to work. She doesn't really have to and claims she cannot stop working because I'm not willing to support her, which is just not true! She'll never be satisfied with her kids, alas, these are our Latina mothers. They love their kids, but hate them at the same time. If that even makes any sense. THIS PHONE at work will not stop ringing at all today, it's starting to get on my last NERVE! SHADDUP! SHADDUP! SHUT THE...UP! I was just thinking the other day how much I love music ya know? It's one of the few pleasures in life I relish, along with screwing, sleeping, laughing, and eating. I own tons and tons of CD's and put music on any chance I can. When at home, I gotta have my stereo on, or else I feel naked. In my car, gotta have the stereo on too. At work, I don't have the radio on so much, because everyone here is BLARING LOUD and have their own radios on, so trying to truly enjoy my music is worthless here. Right now someone's got that BORE Norah Jones on. BLAH! I'd much rather be listening to good ole' classic rock, British-style baby! I love singing KARAOKE even though it really is cheesy and for losers who never really amounted to becoming true singers. THE HURRACAYNE'S A'COMIN'! Florida's got another pinwheel-shaped huge ass storm coming its way! As if one two weeks ago or so wasn't enough. AND THOSE REPUBLICANS this past week have been BORING! BORING! I'd rather watch mold grow than that convention. Schwarzenegger was ridiculous and cliché-ridden in his speeach and Dick Cheney's twisted frown and delivery was about as exciting as sharpening a pencil. I guess George Dubyah speaks tonight, so that should be somewhat interesting, even though more and more do I realize how intolerant his party is to so many disenchanted, like us gays. I love that Bush'll kill terrorist bastards, but not his intolerance of gays or Howard Stern or scientific progress. He's very backward in his views and a Bible-thumping nerd really. Which is too bad. I guess I'll have to vote for Kerry and hope he'll drop a nuke or two when necessary and not back down. Hmmm...how strange. I'm not that sleepy anymore, must be because I'm doing something I like and have interest for, unlike my job. LOLOLOLOL! I have this really nice man from Iraq who learned French working to my left here who will not shut up the entire day speaking to me in French. I have never spoken this much French in my life and should be truly ready once I visit those frogs someday, but MAN! TAIS-TOI HOMME! He will not shut up for more than three seconds. I'm wondering if he doesn't have some sort of sick obsessive gay crush or something. AHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAH!! He says I speak French very well and loves to practice with me. Well cool DADDY-OH, but just be quiet a little longer okay? MON DIEU! Anyway, I'm signing off for now, soon to report on this mee life ASAP.

THE BLOGGER THIS EVENING IS A PIECE OF DONKEY EXCREMENT

WHAT THE HELL??!! WHAT THE HELL!??? THIS BLOGGER TONIGHT IS ANNOYING THE F**K OUT OF ME!! IT JUST DELETED TWO OF MY LOGS JUST AS I WAS ABOUT TO POST THEM! ARGH!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! I'm getting tired of writing here! This is insanitas veritas! If there even is such a Latin expression! I must re-write the fact that tonight I was talking about Madonna's amazing career, my friend David's like of trashy gay bars, the deaths of Laura Branigan and L.A. anchorman Larry McCormick, the Republicans and their lies this week in New York just as the Democrats last month, and other shit which now I am quickly forgetting thanks to my blood pressure going up here! Okay. Take a deep breath and...okay. There. Better. I think. I sure as hell am gonna copy and paste to Microsoft Word from now on, lest my precious hard thought words get obliterated in the two seconds it takes for the page to move on once I decide to publish this. It is bloody awful to lose one's hard work so quickly. Does that apply to virginity? ALLRIGHT! ENOUGH HORSING AROUND THERE TOBAR. "Ooooooooooooooooo, you got to just, move to the music!"

ARGH! I AM LIVID! LIVID!!! DAMN YOU!

I just wrote a kick-ass blog and it was deleted! I COULD SCREAM! I ranted and raved about Madonna, me being a loser at home on Saturday night, the deaths of Laura Branigan and L.A. anchorman Larry McCormick, the Lotto being worth 100 million tonight, my aunt and cousin in Mexico having fun, my uncontrollable sex drive, my friend David always taking me to trashy gay bars to laugh at people, and some other issues which I can't remember anymore. Oh yeah, the Republicans in New York for their week of lying to the people as did the Democrats already. Okay, I feel better now. All my beautiful words, all my writing that I put so much effort into, got deleted by accident as I was about to post my last blog. Oh well, no point in crying over a dead terrorist. LOLOLOL! Wait a minute, that's a cause for celebration! I'm looking fuller everyone says. Not as skinny anymore. AHEM. I like hearing that! Finally my head doesn't look like it's being supported on a redwood treelike body! OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, you got to just, move to the music! That was the title of my deleted log, which I had to re-write for Madonna's sake. Okay, over and out, till next time, GOD WILLING.

ANOTHER COLD OR IS IT WEST NILE VIRUS OR BIOTERRORISM OR MY BUILDING IS CONTAMINATED OR AM I JUST A BIG BABY?

Are those Olympic games almost done? They were cool at first, now they're just dragging. Anywho...work is hard. Lots and lots to do. UGH! And petty stoopid people that I have to work with. DAMN! What can I do? Gots to make a living and pay the bills, and save money for my upcoming EMPIRE! BOOHOOHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!! I SHALL RULE THE WORLD! I hear Lotto tonight is worth 75 million here in California! I should go buy a ticket but my head hurts after a week or so of this supposed cold and cough. The coughing is the worst. My head feels like it's gonna burst, my back muscle is close to torn from coughing and in pain, and I can't sing! PHLEGM and all it's mighty evil! DAMN YOU TO HELL! My sex life is dead, but my drive is still alive thank God. I still crave it healthily. Thank God for PALMela HANDerson and her many miraculous positions. I dunno, I'm physically weak perhaps, not enough vitamins, under too much stress, or this building is full of cooties...either from the people I work with or the vents. As is, we have a warning sign a la your local gas station that our building may cause cancer from some of the chemicals in here! CAN U BELIEVE THAT SHIT?!! I'm working in freakin' Chernobyl! I thought that was from all the Armeyneeans I already work with, but this shit is more serious than I first surmised! My junior high girl best bud moved to San Diego! That is too weird. I'm so used to having her here in Southern CA, although for a time she did try the Bay Area, but came back after that stint. Hmmm...here's hoping she does well down there with all those MEXICANS. But then again, she is Mexican. Well what do ya know! HA! My mom has calmed down a bit, she thinks I'm more worthy of existence after proving to her I am not the CHEAP JEW she claims I am. And no, I am not anti-semitic. Or racist. I just happen to have real twisted crude humour folks. It's in my blood. This is a mighty good way of killing time, waiting for my work time to wind down. So damn quiet in here now. All the non-English-speaking foreigners whom I work with have practically gone home, and here is li'l ole' Native me, typing such controversial lines away! My cough does feel better damnit. That ginger tea does wonders I do believe. Now I gotta go lie down and rid myself of this headache to hopefully muster enough energy to go to the gym. THE LAZINESS BEGINS...

LET THE GAMES CONTINUE AS MY LIFE STALLS

The Olympic Games 2004! WOOHOO! Incredible to watch these talented young people time and time again. Such perfect bodies, such discipline, such grace! Lots of hotties man! NBC does an incredible job covering the games too, despite the obvious tape delay. HEEHEE! Here I am at work yet again. BORING! I'd rather be in Athens, Greece frankly, or anywhere else but here, but alas, I must earn the money that'll pay the bills, that'll also pay for my upcoming vacation plans. I may be going to Memphis, Tennessee next month to check it out for a few days, and of course, New Orleans for New Year's as I did last year. What a blast that was. My good buddy David showed me around and was very fun to hang out with as usual. I'm very lucky to have met him. And Johnny C. too of course. Here's hoping all three of us can create quite a storm in LA NOUVELLE ORLEANS to end 2004 with a bang, and from us, that'll be literally with a bang or two. Or three. All depends on our hormone levels. HAHA! My aunt has flown in from El Salvador, my cousin (her daughter now a resident alien) is staying with us and her mom for the time being, so there's lots of activity at mee house to say the least. The floors in the dining and living room plus the walls got re-done so it looks nice and clean and fresh. My mother is impossible to deal with now, she wants things her way and done when she says, OI VEY! GOD GRAND ME PATIENCE! I'm a grown man living with his mother. How uncool is that? I love mee mom, but sometimes I wonder if I shouldn't really just be on my own and stop being so damn caring about leaving her to be. If my aunt were to finally live here permanently, it'd be easier for me to move out and go my own way to be honest. That way I'd have my own place, be my own boss at home, and do whatever the hell I wanted to. Maybe have a small doggy. Independence sounds great, but it's so effin' expensive too! This is the debate an 18 year-old should be having, not someone as old as me! YEESH! "MOTHER OH GOD, BLOOD, MOTHER, MOTHER!" Thanks Norman Bates for that memorable, yet disturbing quote. And I am now officially three weeks celibate. I feel so much cleaner, in control, and quite frustrated at times. So it goes...

Democrats in Boston while I'm within these four walls

So I'm reading that bloggers are a big part of the delegates at the Democratic National Convention this time around?! AND I WASN'T INVITED OR EVEN CONSIDERED???!!! LOLOLOLOLOL!! Anyway, the only reason to be in Boston right now would be to see the city and its sights, including all those hot college boys. Ahem. It's sad really, 'cause from what I heard on talk radio, most people in this country don't give a rat's ass about what's going on at the convention, people are just plain sick, tired, and too busy to deal with all this political shit. It doesn't really mean much to most anymore, as it once truly did, thanks to so much freakin' corruption. Can you blame the American people? And HOW IN THA HELL DID THAT FAT NASTY MICHAEL MOORE BECOME SO DAMN UBIQUITOUS ALL OF A SUDDEN??!! HE IS SO ANNOYING! His 15 minutes of fame are really starting to get on my nerves. So he hates Bush, BIG DEAL! MOST PEOPLE DO! LOLOLOLOLOL! I don't really hate Bush, but I don't like him really, and I don't know if Kerry is any better. I guess I'll try and stay awake and watch him give his speech tonight as he shines those pearly whites and adds some charisma to his dry personality. SHOOT, I GOTTA RUN, time to leave work! SEACREST...OUT!

Eating Cheetos

So it's Friday folks. I'm hanging out at home and not AT WORK! WOOHOO! YEAH! Eating junk food, when maybe I should I be at the gym. But hell, I went yesterday and worked out really really good. I'll go tomorrow. YEAH RIGHT! It's so hard to go to the gym. It really is. It takes enormous discipline. I'm glad I'm not fat, just a slight pot belly and some muscles to add on to my naturally lean frame! I'm listening to some classic Simon & Garfunkel. Man, music really meant something in those days, what the freakin' hell happened? The evils of commercialism! My neighbor loves it when I play my stereo real loud, says it takes him back to when he was a young lad in Havana, Cuba and had to secretly listen to his radio since the government didn't allow rebellious music such as that of the Beatles, Led Zepellin, or even Simon and G to be played! Isn't that unbelievable? Well, what am I gonna do with myself today, other than just waste time? Who knows, who cares. It's good to be alive. It sure as hell is.

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas...

Well, I capitulated to my friend David's demands to go out last night and enjoy my birthday, and alas, I had a blast, allergy/cold and all! I missed Bingo at one of our favorite watering holes but we ended up going to another one of our frequent hangouts and acted sillier than children! Cupcakes in our faces, arm wrestling, and stripper included! My work week is short, in that I have asked for a few days off in honor of my birthday, which again was yesterday. I'm gonna have a nice long weekend, with no set plans. I don't know yet what I'm gonna do with myself. Organize my house? YEAH RIGHT! Sleep? FER SURE! Surf the net? PROBABLY! Go to the beach? THAT SOUNDS COOL. Play and relax with my thoughts? SOUNDS KINKY! I showed my co-workers Diane, Lord William, and Jesus of Cuevasneth my pic from my blog and they all thought it was kinda gay, yet cool. It is kinda gay. BUT IT IS COOL! So what's wrong with gay marriage man? HUH? YOU GOT A PROBLEM WIT DAT??!!! So when's the heat over? GEEZ! Southern Cali is supposed to be nice, not oppressive! Anyway, gots to run, I'm spending way too much time here at work now, gotta go home and hear my beloved mother nag me somehow.

It's here! Dear God! I'm 30 years old!

I never thought I'd reach this day! My 30th freakin' birthday! It feels so surreal! So odd! Must be the allergy/cold I'm fighting as well, but besides that, I always felt so young, so invincible, and now it is all hitting me! I was born in 1974, with Nixon almost out of office, Vietnam winding down, and the oil crisis getting worse. Hmmm...not much has changed! LOLOLOLOLOL! Alas, the world has gotten better in many respects, but worse in so many others. I am grateful to be alive. Life is difficult. Yes indeedy oh. Ti's a great adventure however, and I wouldn't trade it for anything. I thank God for the opportunity to be on this incredible planet, to share my life with other cool decent people, animals, and to learn from those dastardly souls who teach us a bit about how not to be or act. Terrorism, and its constant threat consumes my mind daily as does politics. Wow! When I was 20 or so, I really didn't care about this crap, now I try to be as informed a citizen as possible. Sex, musique, laughter, food, and sleep are wonderful! Life is worth living thanks to these great pleasures folks! Well, what can I say, as long as I have my mental, emotional, and physical health, I am a great winner indeed. 30! WOW! Can't get over this amazing fact. It'll take me another week or so to recover...