Friday, February 25, 2011


It's been a while since I've discussed malignant narcissism! LOL! Carlos Estevez! Better known to you and me as Charlie Sheen. This fool is one piece of work. Lemme tell ya something, the dude is out of control: a drug addict, overpaid, obnoxious, conceited, and just plain disastrous in every possible way, Charlie is a classic malignant narcissist. Once married to that very pretty Denise Richards with whom he had kids with, this guy is self-absorbed, selfish, and narcissistic in every way. No regard for anyone but HIMSELF. WHEW! I really dislike this man a lot. CBS finally had the common sense to yank his very successful sitcom Two and a Half Men off the air due to really mean things Sheen said about the show's creator. Sheen was born into privilege thanks to his legendary actor father and is so damn fortunate to have had a decent film career and a hit TV show of his own where he gets paid tons of cash for basically playing himself, but he does not see this at all of course, and takes it completely for granted. I'm waiting for the day he overdoses! YAY! The guy has been involved in tons of scandals for years now; too numerous that I've lost track or count really. He likes prostitutes, porn stars, and cocaine a lot. AHAHAHHAAH! Hey, he can do what he wants with his life I suppose, but Sheen is a father and he drags other people down with him-THIS IS WHY narcissists are so dangerous and destructive; they do not take other people's feelings/emotions into consideration at all! I cannot imagine what a nightmare it must have been being married to this dude. I'm sorry Denise. YIKES! Actually he's been married several times and had tons of women. OH BOY.

END TIMES! My good
friend in San Diego always says that when we discuss the massively disturbing events happening all over the world. I love to have fun; I really do despite my dreary mood swings. I love to laugh, eat, sing, and screw. But you cannot deny that what is going on here on a GLOBAL SCALE is very very worrisome. Massive quakes, solar flares, people rioting all over the Middle East, economies collapsing, strange extreme weather, overpopulation, animals dying off, etc. DOOM AND GLOOM BABY! Those Mayans may have been onto something with that 2012 sh*t. Do you realize how truly bad the American economy is?! No, of course not. We've been busy watching football, Justin Bieber, and American Idol. IT IS GOING TO GET WORSE. Yes, you can be an eternal optimist, but reality is what it is. The price of gasoline alone lately should be a red flag! EEK! And food! Just the other day I went to get Mexican grub with my girl cousin and was shocked when I got so little change back! EXPENSIVE! Millions of Americans are struggling now. It is very sad. The gas and food prices alone are going to send many more into poverty they have never known. Inflation is here kids. IT IS TRULY HERE. And how is our once powerful DOLLAR doing? It's gonna collapse man. And people the world over are tired of starving, being unemployed, and neglected by the rich so they're losing it, especially dem Arabs! Government union jobs (like mine) are being cut and the backlash is going to be enormous. Austere measures are going to piss a lot of people off accustomed to their usual standard of living. The assault on the middle class has begun. IS ALL OF THIS LEADING US TOWARDS A NEW WORLD ORDER?! A ONE WORLD GOVERNMENT?! The whole system is falling apart! The world has always been chaotic and cruel, but this is at quite an unmatched scale! It is a fantastic and fascinating time to be alive! Stay tuned...

Some songs are just immortal and never go out of style. This is one of those classic tunes:

Thursday, February 17, 2011


I'm going to talk about Lady Gaga. That's right. LADY F*CKING GAGA. Like the bitch needs any more attention/promotion?! It's taken a while for her to grow on me, since the pop music world has been sorely lacking for quite some time for a really STANDOUT performer, in my humble opinion. I know Beyoncé, Britney, Rihanna, Katy Perry, and Pink have a remarkable strong presence on the modern charts, but it is Lady Gaga that has now truly hit her stride to quite possibly become the biggest pop star on the planet. Elvis, The Beatles, Elton John, Michael Jackson, and of course Madonna have all been there before, and the endless comparisons with the latter are justified and understandable, but I do believe Lady Gaga is now her very own original entity. We've seen the bizarre costumes, looks, and personas on David Bowie and Elton John before, and the sexually provocative and engaging videos by Madonna in the past, and it has all now come to a perfect amalgamation into this one freakshow of a woman. Or is she a hermaphrodite?! LOL! The hilarious bizarre arrival to this past Sunday's Grammy Awards was a hoot; and her performance on stage was nothing short of brilliant and the true birth (hatching in this case, haha) of a superstar. She is definitely entertaining and truly talented; let Anderson Cooper show you. Or her appearance on Jay Leno perhaps? Or this gem clip in Tokyo? The woman can play the keys and sing for sure. The gay community has been crazy about her for a while now, but there I was simply observing and biding my time. I feel she came out of nowhere and just took off into the stratosphere quite frankly. She's kooky and maybe goes over the top, but I am now convinced and on TEAM GAGA. You can now call me a "Little Monster" I suppose? Her latest song has become an instant #1 hit. What must it be like to get noticed and talked about like this?! And what does the once trendsetting Madonna do now?! Her Royal Highness has already established herself and worked so very hard anyway right?

My teeth have never looked better. I've had my fair share of cavities and
annoying distressing dental work, but never to the point of root canals. I hear those really hurt. Anyway, I've got nice truly clean teeth now thanks to my obsession with chewing gum right after meals or brushing them whenever I get the chance and more responsible recent visits to the dentist. I was fitted for an upper mouth guard at the dentist recently because I tend to grind while I'm asleep, but have found it hard to get used to wearing that weird thing. I have sensitive teeth, which can be kind of painful sometimes. I would love to truly whiten them, but am worried it's going to be very very harsh on my poor choppers which are still recovering from some inlays I had done late last year. At my last cleaning, while I was being flossed by the assistant, she was amazed at how no food particles were flying out of my pie hole. "I don't need to teach you how to floss, you seem to do it well." I would hope everyone would! EW! POOR ORAL HYGIENE on a lover can send me running far FAR away never to return.

My car brakes and tires are done! I did not mind spending money for that, since it's nice to have a car in LA and be able to go wherever. It was however, very upsetting to be towed recently. OUCH. A bit of a long story, but getting one's car towed is never fun, nor is having to pay for its release.

Friday, February 04, 2011


I finally own a smartphone! This one to be exact. Aren't you proud of me? I think I've almost mastered how to use it in just one week's time. That's riveting WAT. So very f*cking riveting...

My car needs the front brakes repaired, new front tires, and the dents and crap fixed from that accident I had about a year ago. I need to clear all this junk post office mail from my room and just looking at it is driving me crazy. The search for a new place to live continues and the time to start cleaning out and throwing out unnecessary clutter is now. I'll tell ya the truth folks, I just don't want to get out of bed sometimes. I find my life overwhelming in many ways right now. Yes, I am overly sensitive okay?! HOW DO I STOP THAT BY THE WAY?! I easily break down or cry now like some wuss; ever since I got my heart crushed last year by that dude. UGH. I'm lucky in getting laid, but at true relationship-based love?! What a disaster! Yeah, life's really great right?! There's this dating website I recently joined and it astonishes me to sometimes read profiles where guys say they are loving life and they can't wait to welcome a new day! WOOHOO! REALLY?! LOLOLOL! That kind of amazing joy exists?! AHAHHAHAHA! Don't get me wrong I have plenty of happy moments, but Good Lord this existence annoys and frustrates me quite often. The grass always looks greener on the other side--yeah, that is so my issue. I often feel everyone else is living life to the fullest and I'm kind of just here cruising along. Actually, when I come to think of it, it's nice not to have children. I can't imagine having to support and tolerate one of those things, let alone have to bring them into this amazingly sick twisted world. I hope to return to my once carefree selfish way of living soon and forget this idea of wanting to be in love. I failed someone long ago who was very much into me and now I got punched in the face and gut and thrown into the middle of running traffic as karma perhaps? JUST GREAT. Life is good. HA.

My cousin has flown in from Oklahoma to stay with us the next few months and enrolled just yesterday into a medical assistant program at a school near downtown. Good for her I say! Jobs in the medical field are thriving, despite the still huge unemployment numbers. She said the weather out there right now is a nightmare; cold and snow everywhere. Harsh winter this season all over the country right? You'd never know it here in L.A. though. The weather has been nauseatingly beautiful. Every day there is sun and blue skies. Every day. EVERY. F*CKING. DAY. I want some clouds and rain damn it! I LOVE THE RAIN! I'm obviously living in the wrong city right? Time for Seattle or Portland baby! With my cousin in town, it will be a lot easier to move and her help will be desperately needed and appreciated. I like my cousin very much too. We get along very well and she seems to get me without judging me. We both have the same music tastes too which is very cool. She just might be my current favorite HAG. I realize I don't really have that many friends that are girls and my two favorites always keep in touch with me through the Internet. Jesus, what kind of homo am I that I don't have women friends?! I seem to gravitate towards men (gay or hetero) period! WOW. I never thought of this, but it's so true.

Damn I'm so straight and can't wait for the Super Bowl this weekend.