Thursday, July 26, 2012


Last Thursday was a big BIG day!  This blog turned EIGHT years old!  WOW!  COME ON NOW!  HOW ABOUT A LITTLE COMMENT CONGRATULATING THIS LITTLE SPACE ON THE INTERNET?!  EIGHT YEARS MAN!  Not only that, but it was also my 22nd birthday!  WOOHOO!  I'm still so young and hung, and full of...LIFE!  LMAO!

Yeah so I won't mention that evil dude specifically by name who went into the movie theater and killed all those people last Friday.  Gun violence is a terrible thing folks.  And this country is world famous for breeding psychos who go postal and kill folk in one heinous rampage such as what we witnessed yet again last week!  Our laws are retarded, and where we should be strict and harsh we are not!  Now they'll spend all this money keeping this creep locked up, feeding him, giving him free health care, and having all kinds of shrinks and so-called mental health professionals studying him and trying to understand what went wrong and why he was sent over the edge as to amass such a large arsenal of weapons in his apartment and then on to killing those people at the movies.  Why did the poor baby lose it and decide to murder twelve average Americans (including a six-year old girl); how can it be prevented to never happen again?!  OH THE HORROR OF YET ANOTHER MASS SHOOTING!  Listen to me you dumbf*cks!  Stop the freakin' questions and stop the waste of taxpayer money and put the clown to death already!  THIS IS HOW YOU STOP THIS MADNESS FROM HAPPENING AGAIN!  TIME TO BE STRICT AND HEARTLESS!  I often find nowadays the victims are the ones who don't get justice whilst the criminals get all kinds of perks and special treatment!  The Norwegians are still trying to figure out and sympathize with their mass shooting creepo a year after he murdered all those teens!  REALLY?!  WHAT THE HELL?!!  FRY HIS ASS ALREADY!  FRY HIM!  TORTURE AND SEND HIM TO THE STAKE, NO FURTHER QUESTIONS!  GUILTY BEYOND A REASONABLE DOUBT RIGHT?!  UGH!  But our justice system is supposed to be the fairest and most reasonable.  Yeah okay.  YUCK!  What do I know about human rights, and do I even care?  All I know is that our time here is so very temporary and that we can be taken at any moment.   I don't understand or know why we are so vulnerable or mortal, but it's reality and all this negativity humans like to create is pointless and worthless when we're just gonna end up in an urn or coffin in the end!  You can call me a conspiracy theorist, but part of me wonders if this guy even acted alone.  Hmmm...

Ever since the Olympics came to Los Angeles in 1984, I've always been a big fan.  I mean, to see these very young people in such excellent shape doing such extraordinary things is a real treat to me.  As I grew older and began to realize my true sexual orientation, it also became pretty evident I wanted to watch the Olympics for the dudes and their hot bods.  AHAHAHAHAHA!  Let's face it, those gymnasts are very short and look stunted but they got some really nice muscular builds.  The real eye candy though, comes with the swimmers and divers.  MAMA MIA!  Those long tall sleek and perfect lean bodies are something to behold!  I sometimes regret not having trained to become an Olympian, but what poor shy Latino kid like myself do you know of that ever really makes it to the Olympic Games?  Besides, I never really learned how to swim.  I know, it's embarrassing to admit, but I had a bad near-drowning incident when I was about four that I never got over, but it's never too late to learn right?!  Hey, maybe that should be a goal for me this summer: to learn how to finally freakin' swim!  OMG!  LOLOL!  I've been saying this for years, but I will become as great as that nerd/geek Michael Phelps before I die!  Speaking of Michael, he is so damn hot!  I know he's got weird teeth and a dorky face, but I'd take him in a heartbeat!  Michael likes weed here and there, and that makes him cool in my book, but he also has the perfect swimmer's bod.  Well, the big day is tomorrow, as London hosts the 2012 Games.  WOW!  There's a city I'd love to visit as well.  Man, so much to do before I finally croak!  SO MUCH!  And by the way, those divers are often gay.  SO VERY GAY.  Like really really homosexual.  LOLOL!

Thursday, July 12, 2012


I would have never moved in here had I known!  I've got the neighbors from hell.  These people are the trashiest, most obnoxious, loudest and worthless wastes of space I've ever had the displeasure of living next to.  I've only lived here a year since I became a victim of the housing crisis, but it's been enough to make me wish for something terrible to happen to these barbarians.  My place is nice and cozy and charming, and the whole entire block here is full of pretty respectful and hard-working people who keep their homes looking pretty nice and clean.  BUT THESE NEIGHBORS?!  EEK!  These heathens are drug addicts, foul-mouthed, and have at least eight children who are all under the age of 10!  I've lost count, but I think the two sisters live in the complex with their kids and one of them has her sperm donor there, but then again both of the sisters just had babies and the kids are from different daddies and their mother is there too and their landlord lives in the back but he recently got evicted and it's just a never ending nightmare from these rats.  Yes, they're rats!  Some days are actually pretty peaceful and quiet, but those are rare.   Every day those kids are out playing and making noise.  The sisters battle each other or their respective baby daddies.  Epic cussing from everyone there, including the kids!  Every time I leave my house I walk away from that cursed dwelling and avoid them at all costs!  These savages must be on welfare, but recently someone was smart/brave enough to call Child Protective Services on them and the police to get them in trouble!  AND IT WASN'T ME BELIEVE IT OR NOT!  LMAO!  Oh, how I cannot wait for these people to be murdered!  Yes, including the children!  The kids like to talk sh*t as one walks by their place and act just as bad as their parents!  Look at the way they're being raised; what possible future can one expect from these spawns?  NONE!  All the houses on my block look nice, but theirs?! Devoid of any grass or trees and there's always trash all over the place.  It looks like something you'd find in a horror film! LOL!  As I write this, the two sisters are fighting each other and one of the babies is crying!  So when is the law going to take care of these losers?!  OH PLEASE BABY JESUS, SMITE THEM WITH ALL YOUR POWER AND GLORY, THESE DEMONIC SATAN-POSSESSED HUMANOIDS FROM HELL!  Quite frankly, they don't really ever mess with us directly, but it's the noise and disturbance they cause that makes it unbearable.  If this doesn't cease, I'll have no choice but to move; I've actually started to look for a new place.  Crossing my fingers daily they will all die during the night and peace at last will come with the next sunrise...

I wish I had as many readers and comments like I used to get back in the heyday of this blog, but I guess ever since I had my heart ripped and crushed to shreds back in 2010 + the brutal recovery and beyond, my posts have never been the same.  Some have accused me of being too negative or not moving on or focusing too much on NARCISSISM.  Yes okay, perhaps I have spent way too much time on dreary and all too-real material, but I never foresaw learning the painful, yet VALUABLE lessons I have in the past three years or so!  It has been nothing short of eye-opening my friends, and I'm afraid I'll never be the same again!  I don't wanna give up on love or people either mind you!   Because no matter what, I truly do believe that there are good humans out there still!  So ya see?  I'm not that embittered YET!  I do however recognize and am much more cautious about who to allow in my life and into my heart from now on.  ANYONE WHO DISPLAYS AWFUL RED FLAG NARCISSISTIC WARNING SIGNALS simply does not make it past a few words with me anymore.  I cannot stand abusive, controlling, or petty folk.  Gay men that are interested in tearing down others because of the way they dress or look turn me off, as do those who focus only on reality shows and stupid FAKEBOOK trivial nonsense are immediately disqualified from my life.  I want people to have a heart, a mind, and a soul!  EMPATHY!  A GOOD SENSE OF HUMOUR!  I want people to be kind, generous, and show some caring!  I want people to be smart and intelligent and can talk about art, world events, and our strange incredible existences!  I want to be enriched and my self-esteem to be lifted, not dragged down by some awful toxic person.  So often, emotionally giving people like myself miss these negative clues because we want to be tolerant or kind to others, but F*CK that.  NO MORE.  I'm not saying I've become an asshole or a jerk, but I have learned to draw more healthy boundaries.  At least I hope I have.  I'm obviously not perfect, nor will I ever be, but I am trying my best to not get steamrolled ever again by bad humans.  One will always run into sh*tty individuals at work or in public, but the trick is to not allow them to make you miserable!  Always keep calm and do not allow their toxicity to ruin your happiness!  Maybe my terrible neighbors are yet another lesson in humility?! LOL!




Great song and this video is purty neat:

Thursday, July 05, 2012

SUMMER 2012.

I just bought a new laptop!  My friend Larry was nice to help me choose a cheap, yet quite effective Toshiba!  I really needed a new one, because my old Dell was just embarrassing; speakers were blown out, the battery only lasted five minutes, my DVD player was broken, I had tons of viruses, etc.  I promise to take care of my new laptop ok?  I dropped the other one quite a few times, but it was so ridiculously heavy!  My new one is pretty light and seems more disposable (Made in China, LOL), but it will do!  I'm typing my first ever blog post on it!  As my friend back in Kentucky would say, "RIVETING."  LOLOLOLOL!

Oh kids, in two weeks I'm having yet another birthday.  MY GOD!  How time flies.  Yesterday was Independence Day, and I went to a local barbecue in the afternoon and got to hear my ghetto neighborhood turn into a war zone at night as everyone set off their illegal fireworks!  Oh brother!  At least my mom and I got to see the professional show in the distance from our front doorstep, which was actually a nice treat/surprise.  I tells ya what, it makes me very grateful sometimes to have been born in these United States.  Despite the fact I'm not rich, I have so many things to be thankful for.  This country has been a remarkable economic, technological, cultural, social, and creative marvel/force unlike anything the world has ever seen!  The opportunity to become anything you really want no matter what class you were born into has really been a wonderful ideal--the American Dream.  I don't want to get into how all this has gone down the toilet in the last decade or so and how America is now becoming a country of super rich elites where the middle class is being wiped out and all those great democratic ideals have now been torn to pieces and we have effectively pissed all over our Constitution--I'd like to think of this country as what it used to be; where everything was possible and there were seemingly no limits to one's potential.  I know that slavery was shitty and that women and gays had no rights, so for all that social/civil progress we have achieved I am happy I am living now, but I don't like the direction this once GREAT nation is going.  So much divisiveness, growing poverty, lack of jobs, corruption, greed, selfishness, and increasing crime.  Democrats and Republicans are all in bed together, yet people are still stupid enough to believe in these two parties!  Congress is full of greedy corrupt filthy rich millionaires who don't give a crap about the common working American!  We need a REVOLUTION damn it!  Those brave Founding Fathers that stood up to the English king; you won't find leaders like that anymore.  It's sad, but no one has the balls to die for the cause in these times!  We're all f*cking cowards!  Patrick Henry said it best, "Give me Liberty, or give me Death!"  Americans now are happy to take it up the rear as long as their favorite crappy reality show is on television!  UGH!  We're a nation of brainwashed dolts, seemingly unaware of how much this awesome country is now tanking!  We've become lazy and complacent.  Spoiled rotten really.

I want you to enjoy every good moment you can.  I got very sick about two weeks ago and it sucked!  Stomach flu or food poisoning, but it scared me very much, because I am never that ill.  This year has been one of spiritual awakening for me.  I am a gregarious fun loving man with a dry sarcastic cynical sense of humour, but as I grow older I have come to realize that people or substances cannot be depended on for one's emotional stability or happiness.  Happiness has to come from within really, and you must cultivate your own self-esteem and confidence.  I'm not saying there aren't good people out there, but I am saying that heartbreak and disappointment caused by others is very real and sadly all too common nowadays.  I firmly believe relationships should last a lifetime, but then again maybe I'm clingy and co-dependent?  I dunno man, but I want to believe in good friendships and true love; perhaps this is why I want my faith in God to grow?  I just don't think the universe happened by itself or that the miracle of Planet Earth and all this life just evolved!  THERE HAS TO BE A GOD!  I'll go into it more some other time, when I don't feel so plagued by random thoughts, but I will say that to believe in a Higher Power offers me a comfort I cannot find in ANY human being as of late.   Faith is powerful, and should not be taken lightly!  I am emotionally and physically vulnerable!  I NEED GOD IN MY LIFE!  A LOVING TOLERANT GOD THAT LOVES AND BELIEVES IN ME!  More on this to come...

I still love Radiohead.  They're weird and brilliantly unconventional: