Monday, December 08, 2008


What am I supposed to do? What am I supposed to say? A friend is struggling through barbaric treatments for a real shitty cruel disease, and he fears his mortality may be just around the corner. It is so frustrating, because here I am, another mortal powerless human with my own set of responsibilities/issues to contend with, and how can I even help the poor bloke? I guess I can try my best to be there for him, but do I really wanna see him all f**ked up, or can he even stand being seen all messed up like that? He's tired, in pain, and feels defeated he says. I can't blame him. He's even offering me some of his stuff, just in case he doesn't survive and has to go to the next dimension. To hear words like that is quite jolting. I know we are supposed to die, but to hear a bud at such a young age even discussing it like this so personally really jabs at my soul. I am at a loss at this point. All I can do is pray. Will you pray with me please? I'm so sorry, so very sorry really. He looks quite good despite all he's been through. I'm trying to offer some sort of hope, but what do I know? I'm so confused, and any advice/encouragement at this point would help tremendously.

Not to be outdone in the depressing department is Milk, a good but ultimately heartbreaking film. The cast is superb, and I sure as hell had no idea all that political garbage like PROP 6 in California even went on 30 years ago! WOW! I've heard of Anita Bryant in jokes, but I had no idea this maniacal bigoted bitch was even a political force back then like this! YIKES! Funny how three decades later, we're still debating this crap all over again! WE NEED HARVEY NOW! Harvey's murder was a big loss indeed. A politically-savvy and charming man was sadly gunned down in cold blood. A real shame. Why does life have to be so damn cruel at times?

this is for you. LOLOLOL!


A Lewis said...

We are all called to wear many different hats in our lifetime. The consoler. The consolee. The sick. The healthy. Be the best you that you're capable of. He needs you to be. Hugs and lots of good prayers and thoughts during this tough time.

W. J. St. Christopher said...

I'm just a tad older than you (cough, cough) and remember Harvey and Anita all too well -- so well that I can't even bring myself to see the film.

I would never have believed we'd be dealing with this same crap -- and all the other pointless, horrendous crap -- into the new millennium.

Humankind never fails to live down to my expectations.

As for your friend, just love him -- even if it's a tough job for you. That's all any of us can give each other, really.

Sending good vibes to both of you,

~ W. J.

Ladrón de Basura (a.k.a. Junk Thief) said...

I wasn't in SF at that time, but I also am old enough to have vivid memories of that time and how it was a turning point on the national stage. Anita was given quite a national forum but ultimate shamed herself as public opinion changed. It's a sad reminder that any battle for rights is never fully won and never taken for granted.

Bill German said...

i cant believe that cunt anita said "i will pray for his deviant lifestyle". It's amazing how draconian our country really is. Thanks for sharing.

alice said...

I'm so sorry for both you and your friend for having to experience this trauma that serious illness can be. I will pray for both of you. Ultimately, I believe there are many things that we are incapable of understanding in this life. If we try to attach meaning to events, most of the time it is only speculation. The only thing that is obvious is that it's horribly painful for all concerned, and I feel bad for you.

Anita was a self-righteous bigot - and her popularity diminished after her out-spoken opinions became a media circus. She was preaching to the choir, though - I don't think anyone was influenced by her. I remember the Harvey and Anita dance vividly. It wasn't pretty.

M- Filer said...

So sad about your friend WAT. I am sorry.