I have known Jay for about six years.
I met him when I first started my sucky office job back in 2001. He worked there too. An older handsome Latino lad I must say in his early fifties. Very friendly. Originally from El Salvador (like my family) and very intelligent. Good deep voice. Always homophobic though. Yes, that always did bother me because I guess he had no idea whom he was befriending. We would always talk at work, and even hung out several times outside of the office. About three years ago or so, Jay moved from the office to another shithole closer to his new home and I have been keeping in touch with him once in a while over the phone. I genuinely like Jay, but it was and is very hard to talk to someone who does not know my sexual orientation, especially such a royally staunch strict "straight" dude.
Well, Friday night, he called me out of the blue and told me he would be hanging out a food joint in my area and to stop on by to visit him. So I did. I had more in mind however; I felt it was time to tell him the truth. But how? HOW??!! Who gives a fuck right?! I have nothing to lose anymore, so I had to do it. I went to see him, and he was very happy to see me again. I could not believe how amazingly handsome he looked. Yeah, I won't lie, I was very attracted to him at that point. He shared some of his grub with me, a beer, and began to chat away about his sexual escapades with the ladies.
I got to see his new BMW, and then I proceeded to share some marijuana with him in a secluded spot nearby in his car. He seemed cool to smoke out a bit and turned up the Van Halen. He kept telling me how this one specific woman in his life was giving him drama, and this is when I seized the moment to tell him about my attraction to men. He looked horrified, almost disgusted. He says he never would have guessed nor knew at all; poor man kept fidgeting/slurring and didn't know what to do with himself. I told him I had to end the night in order to meet up with a friend. He still seemed baffled and I think his high wore off quick. He told me he wasn't being judgmental and that this didn't change anything between him and I, but that's what they all say.
I'm willing to bet that this is the last time I ever hear from or see Jay again.