Why didn't I feel or see this all before?

Ah yes, another ordinary Thursday by most standards, but in my life, nothing is ordinary anymore.

I feel a burst of hope, a sense of something big on the horizon (no, not my penis), and I am very much pleased with the sense of accomplishment so far. I’m on the verge of turning 31, and I have never ever in my entire life felt this much sense of control and confidence in myself. It’s as if anything and everything is possible now. This is something I never could have imagined or even considered back when I was 25 even!

The anxiety disorder which so plagued me for years is not something I let get to me as much anymore. I do have my fair share of panic attacks and scary moments, but I’ve learned to live with them and control them as best possible. My emotional demons, which were numerous during most of my 20’s have not entirely vanished, but do not rule my existence as they once did. I feel a sense of fulfillment with my life that I can honestly say I never ever did before. For so many years, it was a dark, lonely, scary, frightening, and insecure world for me. God, when I look back and think about it, I really had some serious emotional problems there. It almost brings me to tears to see how deeply f**ked up I was and how long a way I’ve come. How I didn’t kill myself, God only knows. By his grace…

Most people wouldn’t know it or hell, even believe it, but it was a long hard emotional road to get to where I am now. I thought for awhile there I was going to go crazy. To have this stable (sometimes boring) but decent job, a nice car, good friends, and lots of hope to move ahead, is really quite miraculous. I am seriously considering going into teaching so the road back to school is a ‘comin’ soon! The motivation to do something more with myself is certainly there.

I am not entirely perfect in my life right now by any means. My one and only true romantic personal relationship barely hangs on, and not because of me. I am not a good boyfriend in the monogamous sense of the word. I have a promiscuous lascivious side which I like to fulfill from time to time. Why anyone would want an intense relationship with me is beyond my comprehension. Could it be that I’m just a nice guy? That they can see I do have a good loving heart after all? I dunno. One thing is certain, I have never felt so confident of my sexuality as I do now. So what if I like boys? It bothers so many still, yet to me, it’s an integral and enjoyable part of my life which frankly boosts my ego. It’s nice to be told I’m a stud! At 25, I didn’t believe that, now I think I do. I really think I am good-looking, not because I am conceited, but because so many have said it so, and my self-esteem is now healthier than ever before.

Even the moderate drinking, some occasional pot use, and other acts reserved for rebellious teens have come to play a major point in my life. And it’s ok! I might even do a porn shoot soon for crying out loud! Is this all too wild to be true? Perhaps. Do I care? Not really. Does it make my current life interesting and worth living? Totally. Do I have shitty days? Of course. But that’s fine. I shall not let them destroy the progress, the incredible progress which I have made. Unless someone I love dies on me, I end up with a horrible disease, or other major setbacks occur, nothing can stop this. NOTHING.

Thank you God. Thank you therapy. Medication. Mikey. My friends. Wisdom from living.
If only I had figured it out when I was younger, but then again, do any of us ever?

With age (a mere 30 years old), so much has come to be…

And I’m loving it.

I had a great weekend!

Yeah, there was a bit of drama here and there, but overall, a not too shabby weekend for me!

And oh yeah, there are some real sick people in this world:

http://www.fox21.com/Global/story.asp?S=3456745

"I'm so scared now, I'm shaking!"

My job sucks donkey penis, my direct supervisor is a good naive woman at times, the one above her is a c**t, and they let lots of employees here get away with murder and pick on those of us who are really trying.

FIRE ME THEN! HA!

http://news.yahoo.com/s/usatoday/warningyourcleverlittleblogcouldgetyoufired

How is this still an issue in TWO THOUSAND FREAKIN' FIVE???!!!

Such hypocrisy. We have a shortage of military personnel, so let's just let the "gays" come out now and still die for their country like they have been doing forever.

F**K OFF!

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/8218961/

Somewhere Over The Rainbow...

Well, I guess all storms eventually clear up and the sun does shine once again. All my current drama seems to be subsiding. Thank God for small favors...

God, why have you abandoned me this week?

My whole life feels like it's falling apart. My personal problems are overwhelming me, I am in tears, true painful tears as I write this. I am being dumped for good, my friends are all depressed and some hate each other now, and I've been physically sick all week.

God, please don't abandon me. I need you at this moment of so much pain...

:(

Let The Pride Begin!

Well, it's Gay Pride weekend in Los Angeles. I am looking forward to tonight's huge party at the Paramount Studios backlot with all my friends and some hot boys from all over.

Thanks again to William, my metrosexual fashion expert extraordinaire for helping me shop for clothes and get a tan.

HEEHEE!

http://tomwhitmanpresents.com/events.wonderland.html

So what you're saying is...

Presently and in the not so distant future, most men are going to be fags!

http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20050608/lf_afp/afplifestylefashion_050608142956

Fear is a powerful thing...

I conquered it though, and made myself get checked for all kinds of STD's yesterday. If I am going to be sexually active, I might as well be responsible about it, right?

I hate clinics, hospitals, doctor's offices, nurses, and the like. But the Los Angeles Gay and Lesbian Center is one of the most efficient amazing places I have ever been to.

BRAVO TO THIS GREAT PLACE. YOU GUYS ROCK.

I will be donating money to them, for such great free service and peace of mind provided.

http://www.kintera.org/site/pp.asp?c=8dJGKQNsFoG&b=374225

I am not surprised.

Onward with the destruction of our planet.

Dear God man.

http://www.cnn.com/2005/TECH/science/06/04/un.atlas.reut/index.html

I hate myself in pictures, but oh well!

This is me over the just passed Memorial Day weekend!

Strawberry Fields Forever (Lennon/McCartney) --The Beatles

http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20050531/en_nm/life_beatles_dc

Let me take you down, ’cause I’m going to strawberry fields.
Nothing is real and nothing to get hungabout.
Strawberry fields forever.

Living is easy with eyes closed, misunderstanding all you see.
It’s getting hard to be someone but it all works out, it doesn’t matter much to me.

Let me take you down, ’cause I’m going to strawberry fields.
Nothing is real and nothing to get hungabout.
Strawberry fields forever.

No one I think is in my tree, I mean it must be high or low.
That is you can’t you know tune in but it’s all right, that is I think it’s not too bad.

Let me take you down, ’cause I’m going to strawberry fields.
Nothing is real and nothing to get hungabout.
Strawberry fields forever.

Always, no sometimes, think it’s me, but you know I know when it’s a dream.
I think I know I mean a ’yes’ but it’s all wrong, that is I think I disagree.

Let me take you down, ’cause I’m going to strawberry fields.
Nothing is real and nothing to get hungabout.
Strawberry fields forever. Strawberry fields forever.

A Memorable Memorial Day Weekend Alright!

Well, I partied quite a bit this weekend. Had all kinds of wild fun. My friend David finally lost his mind, and disappoints me tremendously for not being able to handle his dramatic immature temper.

And this very heartbreaking story:

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20050530/ap_on_re_us/corpsman_s_life_honored

Tastes yucky, feels great!

I don't know why my sudden increased use of alcohol to make me feel better about my life, but it's working.

And no, I'm not a raging alcoholic, but I can now understand why people use and abuse it so...

CHEERS!

I have turned to the Dark Side, but in a good way I believe...

No, I will not become a cold emotionless asshole. That's not what I mean.

What I mean is, the time hath arrived for me to cease trying to climb unreachable summits and concentrate on the hills and bluffs that I already know.

I deserve to be adulated, instead of being the adulator.

So be it.

Lord Tobar...RISE!

I quit!

I wish to no longer play this or any games. Therefore, I am going to shed much emotion from my being.

I have no choice, if I want to survive...

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORRRRIIIIIIIIINGGG!

I'm really starting to feel like the main character in the movie, Office Space, BORED TO TEARS with my current job! I need to find a way to make a living that I enjoy, not yawn my way through this whole fiasco...UGH!

"Twisted by the Dark Side was he!"

O.k. Went to early this morning's packed showing of Star Wars: Revenge of the Sith, and I gotta say that although it was full of some mega cheesy moments, it was the by far the very best of the prequels.

Never to match the original last episodes however. NEVER.

And oh yeah, my iPod is working again. I am now happy once more.

"I HATE THEM! I HATE THEM ALL!"

My messed-up iPod, this boring as hell job of mine, and other issues I'm going through are enough to make me feel like Anakin Skywalker and want to turn to the dark side.

If the new Star Wars film tonight/early tomorrow morning is just as bad as the last two, then my transformation will be complete.

Um, so what happened again?!

All my beautiful hard work, all my 1000 plus songs so far on my new iPod were mysteriously deleted by an apparently defective device!

I'm off to replace this puppy and get some answers today!

Bring On The Musical Revolution!

I GOT AN IPOD! I GOT AN IPOD! I GOT AN IPOD! I GOT AN IPOD! I GOT AN IPOD! I GOT AN IPOD!

AH HA!!! Bingo!

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/wendy_s_finger

The Challenge I Bear

I wish to describe to you these feelings which I feel
I do not know how it came to be or why the need
But there they are, truth be told, like the sunrise
Even when the clouds conceal its shining splendor

I know it can never be, but alas I always hold out the hope
That I can perhaps one day climb that high mountain
Or achieve that beloved goal of showing you
The value of your presence in my meandering journey

I wonder often if this too shall pass like the wind
Or if this is really what so many write and dream of
This simple thorn which doesn't sting, but is constantly there
Like your wide catchy smile and incredible brightness

It is with great regret that my heart can no longer refute
The limerence in which it now finds itself in
Alas, the deed and duty itself is done and irreparably fulfilled
The seal forever branded in its core and my being throughout

Break the seal, and change yours and my life forever...

The dichotomy of human versus animal nature.

These kinds of stories bring me close to tears!

The evil of humans towards their own children:

http://news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&u=/ap/20050511/ap_on_re_us/girls_dead

And the greatness and love of dogs for a species like ours:

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/kenya_abandoned_baby

It boggles the mind really.

A most impressive film!

I saw Kingdom of Heaven Friday night into Saturday morning with my co-worker/bud William. What an impressively good historical account of the Crusades!

Bravo to the cast and crew, although for some I hear, Orlando Bloom's portrayal is not heroic enough. Oh well, the young Englishman is a star and women love him, so it is only fitting he'd get such a role over better actors out there. It's a given!

I'm sorry...WHAT??!! HUH??!!

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/homosexual_brains

BLOG SCHMOG!

I was surfing through other people's blogs last night, amazed at the creativity and insanity of so many out there. Everyone wants to be a star, popular, and loved no matter how truly annoying and senseless they are! This is starting to make me ponder even more, WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER WITH THIS???!!! This blog shit is pretty fuckin' stupid, but I cannot stop now that I've started. It's like washing one's clothes or the car, you just gotta do it.

What is gonna happen to my blog when I die? Who owns the rights? Does it stay online forever? Will all of the ridiculous nonsense-filled vain narcissistic blog community just be deleted after 100 years as the future becomes aware that we can't possibly be alive anymore?

Or maybe that won't even be an issue. At the rate the world is going, we may not have much longer:

http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/usnkoreanucleartest

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20050506/ap_on_re_mi_ea/iraq_050506202830

http://news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&u=/afp/20050505/pl_afp/usnuclearnkoreairan_050505193251

BLAH! It's cinco de freakin' mayo, where's the party?!

I’m bored. And it’s cinco de mayo too. I guess I could go out to a bar, but most of my friends are probably just gonna wanna stay home like me. It’s slightly raining outside too.

David now claims to be full-blown depressed and has decided to isolate himself from us while Sonny figures out how to proceed in his serious relationship with him after catching David cheating. Hanging out with Johnny and Sonny last night was great, but not the same. I feel as though the Beatles have broken up here with all the drama that has occurred. I just hope it all works out in the end, because our little silly quartet is something I really do enjoy.

Driving to and from Johnny’s new pad in Winnetka last night had me concerned since I had to take the 101 Ventura Fwy and all throughout my trip going and coming back, I kept thinking about the recent shootings on L.A. freeways! GEEZ MAN! As if I and everyone else in the city didn’t already have enough to worry about! The media doesn’t help either, probably adding to the fear of the populace.

I cannot wait for this work week to end. It feels like an endless burden. Except when I get to see and talk to my co-worker/buddy William. He’s endlessly fascinating and too adorable to describe. Mediocre to most women, the poor guy is actually quite intelligent and cute. At least to me and to many gay men as well, who are just itching to get him out of the closet, at least bisexually! HAHA!

If only those bitches he dates knew the real William...

All I can do is observe.

I’m having a disappointing week. Everyone around me is imploding emotionally. Mikey, my soulmate, is complaining of migraines and deteriorating health, my good friends Sonny and David (who were supposedly dating) are in serious trouble after David was caught with his hands in the cookie jar, Johnny is having problems with his family and living situation, my longtime friend Steven was dumped by his lover George, and my co-worker/buddy William cannot seem to let go of a harmful relationship with a bitch and meanwhile I get to witness and hear it all, a helpless spectator who wants nothing but everyone to be healthy and happy. Instead, it all makes me sad and disappointed.

As for myself, I could complain, but why bother? Unlike many people, I acknowledge that we humans are where we are in life most of the time due to our own choices. Here I sit at work, wondering where this twisted journey called life is taking me. Nowhere really, if I continue living the way I am.

I love my new computer, and that at least keeps me happy somewhat. Right now, my life lacks drama, but I always wonder for how long?

Hopefully forever…as life is really short and comes to such a dreadful end anyway.

FUCK IT.

MADE IN CHINA.

It scares me folks. It really does. The United States of America is losing its position as the world's dominant economy to the Chinese. IS ANYONE PAYING ATTENTION TO THIS??!!! JUST LOOK AT WHERE MOST OF YOUR STUFF IS NOW MADE!!!

PLEASE READ ON:

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/7693580/site/newsweek/

2005: The Year of the Finger.

MORE! OH YES! LOTS MORE LADIES AND GENTS ON THIS FINGER AT WENDY'S STORY, WHICH KEEPS GROWING IN INTRIGUE! WOW!

Just one look at this woman's face and you can see what kind of an evil conniving con artist she truly is!

http://www.cnn.com/2005/LAW/04/26/Wendys.finger.ap/index.html

The Finger That Would Not Die

A-HA! So the lawsuit crazy bitch I've been harping about finally and justly got arrested today!

YEEHA! BUT GOD ALMIGHTY MAN, TO WHOM DOES THAT FINGER SHE PLANTED IN HER CHILI BELONG TO??!! I CAN ONLY IMAGINE AND CRINGE AT THE THOUGHT...

http://news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&e=5&u=/ap/20050423/ap_on_re_us/wendy_s_finger&sid=84439559

HAPPY EARTH DAY!

Many congrats are in order to PBS once again for Wednesday night's engaging, informative, and disheartening program from National Geographic called Strange Days on Planet Earth. At the rate we're going, our home, the jewel of the solar system, Earth, is going to dramatically change for the worse forever if we don't get our act together and stop its destruction.

The first two episodes of the four-part series dealt with how through travel and ignorance, humans have unwittingly moved native species from their original habitats into other areas where they do not belong threatening the native species there and causing huge problems for the environment and for humans living in the area. Termites which were once supposed to be found China were unknowingly brought to New Orleans after WWII in crates homecoming soldiers used to pack their stuff in. The wood used in these crates was perfect for these little stowaways which have now invaded New Orleans' many French Quarter wooden buildings and threatens them with eventual destruction. The Water Hyacinth, a native plant of Brazil was brought to Lake Victoria in Uganda and for a while threatened the lake's existence because it was overgrowing unabated, but was stopped thanks to a smart ecologist who brought in weevils to take care of the vicious weed. The global warming of the Earth was also discussed and the implications for animals and humans through minimal but significant climate change is something to be seriously considered!

We are all connected in one way or another, whether plant, animal, insect, or human species. What we do affects all others. There is no other way around it!

Please visit the links below and consider donating if you can. This is so important! Our precious home is at threat!

http://www.pbs.org/strangedays/aboutshow

http://promo.yahoo.com/earthday05/

http://www.nrdc.org/

http://www.earthjustice.org

http://www.wilderness.org

https://ww2.sierraclub.org/membership/specialoffer/member1.asp

Benedictus Conservativus

Amen, we have a new Pope. God help us all! YIKES!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pope_Benedict_XVI

¡Viva La Música!

So, it’s the wee hours of a Monday morning here, and I am enjoying my new computer beyond my wildest dreams and fantasies. It is phenomenally fast and the cable modem Internet connection I have is so far, nothing short of superb!

I am having a blast burning CD’s and downloading music. I’ve fallen into a music phase of finding the best in Latin music, whether classic or modern. This is not a new phase, as I have been doing this since the early 90's, with artists such as Miguel Bosé, Mecano, La Unión, Maná, and Juan Luis Guerra y 440. I kind of left the Latin scene though in the mid 90's when the alternative grunge rock scene exploded and gave us some phenomenal unforgettable music thanks to Nirvana, Stone Temple Pilots, Green Day, Smashing Pumpkins, Radiohead, No Doubt, Pearl Jam, and many others too numerous to mention. Then came the late 90's and early 2000's when I went into my classic rock British invasion phase. I began to feverishly collect all that was The Beatles, Led Zeppelin, Rolling Stones, Pink Floyd, and The Who of course. I think I’m now going back to my roots, only because there is some good music being made out there by Juanes, Shakira, Molotov, Café Tacuba, Gustavo Cerati, and many others. Let’s just say my CD collection is pretty impressive to say the least, but my collection of mp3's in the next year or so with this new computer should begin to look even more amazing. I mean, I’ve been out of the mp3 loop for years, not having the equipment available to even use this amazing technology. To me, NAPSTER was just one big controversial news story, not something I even used, as I never had it when it was making headlines.

Yes, I still have room for the occasional Pop Top 40 cheesy hit here and there and some good catchy Hip Hop, but for the most part, I like well-composed, lyrically smart, and well-crafted music. Rock and Roll will always be high on my list.

I am now officially into any and all kinds of music as evidenced by my growing musical tastes in the 1990's and early parts of this decade. And how could one not be? Music is such an incredible art form to which there is no equal. It soothes the soul, uplifts the spirit, sends chills down the spine, delights the brain, freezes a moment in time and brings back memories like no other except maybe the sense of smell. In any language is pretty much fine for me, preferably in English and Spanish, which are the dominant languages for music the world over.

Life is so worth living with so much beautiful sound.

93 years ago today...

An eerie anniversary to acknowledge, but the TITANIC had already hit an iceberg and was sinking fast at around this very time that I post this. Well, not during Pacific Time, but Eastern time really.

God, how truly dreadful it must've been.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/RMS_Titanic

The neverending finger story!

http://www.cnn.com/2005/LAW/04/14/wendys.finger.ap/index.html

The continuing saga of the severed finger!

Now this bitch doesn't want to sue Wendy's after all. Just what is this woman hiding or what was she truly scheming? How did that finger get into her bowl of chili after all? Hmmm...

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/7487945/

Prince Dumbo marries the Afghan Hound.

UGH! They were made for each other! Bloody appalling!

"Today...today is history!" -Amon Goeth

I hate to use an anti-Semite's quote on this, but it's true! I am finally, after all these years, connected to high-speed Internet access! My lost Dell computer arrived finally in the last two weeks after being lost God knows where, my heart and soul Mikey helped me set it up, and after a two-hour delay, the cable guy finally arrived to set up supersonic Internet access! YES INDEED! TODAY...TODAY IS HISTORY! At least for me!

I cannot believe Prince Dumbo married that Afghan Hound today. How revolting and appalling! Lady Di, oh poor Lady Di is rolling over and over and over and over and over in that grave!

That finger found at Wendy's might have been planted by that lawsuit-happy woman who started this mess in the first place! GO FIGURE! I was happy just a while ago she had a case against them, and now it turns out she might of cut it off a dead relative at a wake earlier that week to put it in the chili and get herself some cash. What a twisted gross bitch!

Guess what?! The Pope is STILL dead.

That funeral this morning was something else, even though I missed most of it. I couldn't stay awake to be honest, and slept like a baby. But from what I'm reading and the pics posted on the Internet, it was quite the spectacle.

Odd I say, comparing it to the real Jesus Christ, who had such a cruel miserable death and a fairly mediocre disposal of his body. But AH! He was able to move that stone on the third day, something the Pope won't be doing anytime soon.

The Pope is still dead.

Congratulations! Thank God! My brand new Dell computer is up and running! Fast Internet service should come this Saturday, hopefully with a hot good-looking cable guy to go along with all this newfound technological pride!

And what the hell are THESE people doing???!!! (read link to story below)

http://abcnews.go.com/US/wireStory?id=641599&CMP=OTC-RSSFeeds0312

I cannot dislike him, but why'd he have to say that?

So it's official, the Pope is dead, but I ran into this from the Wikipedia Encyclopedia online:

A controversial point of the John Paul II papacy is the "Halloween Letter" issued in 1986 where he applies terms to gays and lesbians such as "disordered, self-indulgent individuals who threaten the lives and well-being of a large number of people". In his most recent publications, John Paul II has identified homosexuality as an "ideology of evil", which has put the Vatican at a an uncomfortable stance with gay rights groups around the world.

EEK! I wonder if he was upset at how, many gays and lesbians have flocked to his beloved Catholic Church to become priests and nuns. What's worse is how so many of those priests have ended up sexually preying on minors and have gotten away with it!

Irony of ironies.

Requiescat In Pace

I do believe Pope John Paul II is dead by now. All everyone is waiting for is official word from the Vatican, but there's no question in my mind that he has already passed on to the next level.

And so it goes. Life. A long short joyous cruel experiment of consciousness involving our physical, emotional, and mental states.

Try explaining that.

Et Tu Brute?!

I haven’t been very interested in giving 100% of myself at my current job for about a year and a half or so, simply because I’m bored of it and frankly I need to get off my skinny ass and find a career that matches my true talents in life.

How disappointing to find a betrayer in this office who told on me to my supervisor this week for slacking off. This only because I’m trying to get her useless horrible friend in trouble for verbally assaulting me unjustly last December. And though I do not like to think myself as a racist, this bitch has made it a racial issue.

Fine you c**t! So that’s the way you and so many trivial petty f**ks in this office operate. You found a weak spot of mine and have decided to milk it for all its worth in order to get me in trouble and help the cause of your uncouth and disrespectful buddy. Stick to your race then traitor! It may have gotten O.J. free, but I guarantee for you, it will not rid ye of thy shackles, nor of his. Your intellect and goals in life are beneath mine and shall always be. You are but wasted space on this beautiful Planet, deserving the fate of convicted Nazis after World War Two: the gallows! THE GALLOWS! SEND HER TO THE GALLOWS! HER AND HER SMELLY DISRESPECTFUL SHITMAKER FRIEND AND LET THEIR FEET SWING!

Rest in peace Terri Schiavo, and may true deserved pain, death, and suffering come upon to the hypocrites, traitors, evildoers, and calumnious scoundrels who seek to do nothing but further the cause of evil and help the Devil and his minions. You just due is a’ comin’.

"Pero, para los cobardes e incrédulos, para los abominables y homicidas, para los fornicarios y hechiceros, para los idólatras y todos los mentirosos, su herencia será el lago que arde con fuego y azufre, que es la muerte segunda". Apocalípsis 21:8

"But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death." Revelation 21:8.

Humanity Is Disgraceful.

I cannot for the life of me understand why God allows us to even continue living on this Planet, when all we seem to do is destroy it. Our beloved friends, the animals of this world are suffering so greatly due to our abuse. The links to the following stories below are only a small sign of the true horrors going on. My soul is in pain, true pain at what we are doing to our amazing ecosystem.

WE SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF OURSELVES. I AM SO DISGUSTED AT BEING A HUMAN BEING TODAY.

No wonder earthquakes, tsunamis, and other killer future natural disasters are coming our way. Mother Nature is pissed, and rightfully so.

WE ARE DAMNED AND DO NOT BE SURPRISED AT THE HORRORS THAT AWAIT US FOR OUR SIN.

http://www.thisislondon.com/news/articles/17571222?source=Evening%20Standard

http://www.guardian.co.uk/international/story/0,3604,1447863,00.html

Vote For Pedro.

With all the scary awful shit going on in the world today, it's nice to find a quirky, original, and witty film such as the one I was fortunate enough to see this weekend on DVD, Napoleon Dynamite.

A most hilarious truly American film if there ever was one. Bravo to the cast and crew!

http://imdb.com/title/tt0374900/

Um, Happy Easter Everybody???

AHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!! What is Madonna up to this time?

http://www.newsoftheworld.co.uk/story_pages/showbiz/showbiz3.shtml

YE HYPOCRITES!

It's Good Friday, and so many are off from work today even though we didn't get the day officially off.

They claim it's to observe the day and prepare for Easter. BUNCH OF LIARS. The rest of the year they're out ruining people's lives, causing mayhem, and avoiding church. Now they're devout Christians?

Hypocrisy at its finest.

“No todo el que me dice: Señor, Señor, entrará en el reino de los cielos: sino el que hace la voluntad de mi Padre que está en los cielos” (Mateo 7:21).

"Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven" (Matthew 7:21).

Sue them for all they got sweetheart!

Last Friday was my nightmare scenario at the drive-thru. Now this! Sweet justice and retribution! Wendy's does it again. Dave Thomas is really rolling over now, ten times over in his grave.

http://news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&u=/afp/20050324/ts_alt_afp/usrestaurantfinger_050324200409

YOU BLOODY PUTZES!

¡Viva Frida Kahlo!

As Terri Schiavo slowly goes, those of us still living must continue to face all of life's challenges up ahead. I'm in a very contemplative state as of late and the sooner I can get my computer the less philosophical and existentialist I will be! HEEHEE!

Last night, I had the fortune of watching PBS' The Life and Times of Frida Kahlo. I've definitely heard of this magnificent woman before (the movie with Salma Hayek is pretty good), but never had I connected with her as much as I did watching the special. A passionate soul she was, full of so much life, wonderful artistic expression, and so much tragedy.

The great love of her life was another Mexican genius, muralist Diego Rivera. A fat ugly womanizing pig, they did share a great love, but not without lots of infidelity. Her nearly fatal bus accident at 16 left her almost crippled but still in horrible pain for the rest of her life. She learned from Diego that women too could cheat and she did do it often with many men and other women as well! She travelled to the U.S. with Diego and even to Paris on her own having successful art gallery shows of her celebrated paintings.

At the very end of her life, as the pain of her body was too much to bear, she painted one final work of art, which not only sums up her love of life despite all its pain, but speaks volumes of how all of us cling to this incredible journey. Sandías (Watermelons) is the name of her last piece with the profound words, Viva La Vida (Long Live Life).

How sweet indeed.

http://www.pbs.org/weta/fridakahlo/

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Frida_Kahlo

Dell go to Hell! And Wendy's too!

I ordered a new computer online from DELL.COM about two weeks ago and received my monitor and speakers just fine, but the actual CPU was lost by U.P.S. and I have now called Dell Customer DISservice about four or five times to receive a new replacement hard drive tower, but to no avail.

Thanks to outsourcing, I have had the "pleasure" of speaking to customer service reps in India and the Philippines! GET A LOAD OF THAT! My most American problem with people on the other side of the globe trying to resolve it.

It's a bunch of shit and a most annoying experience indeed.

I'll never get to experience lightning speed Internet service at home at this rate.

Thanks Dell. Maybe if I did some pot like their old spokesperson (that young dude that did commercials for them a few years back) I'd feel less upset.

La Primavera and a Happy Birthday too!

Today marks the vernal equinox, the official start of the Spring season and also a landmark birthday, my pride and joy, Mikey's 30th birthday! A mate with true soul.

His website:

http://www.geocities.com/conclave27/

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Many more ahead do I wish thee to live through in this crazy crazy world.

"THEY SAY IT'S YER BIRTHDAY!" -The Beatles, 1968, The White Album.

America is sadly trigger happy.

Oh no! It has happened again. Another Columbine-style school shooting.

http://news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&e=2&u=/ap/school_shooting

I rue the day when I have to feel yet another earthquake here in Southern CA or witness the next terrorist attack and have to say the same thing, “Oh no! Not again!”

History doth repeat itself.

Dave Thomas is rolling over in his grave.

A most unpleasant experience last night for me at Wendy's on Sepulveda Blvd. in Van Nuys, CA. I went to their drive-thru window and ordered two classic single burgers, two sets of fries, and one Frosty as I was on my way to my buddy Johnny's house to hang and kick it.

Well what happens? The first Latina bitch gives me two Frosties and charges me for it when I only asked for one. I told her, "I'm sorry I only wanted one Frosty." She proceeds to argue with me that I said two and then has the nerve to communicate to her ex-chola co-worker in sarcastic Spanish that "Me dijo que quería dos..." ("He told me he wanted two...") and she continued to mumble other shit in Spanish about me that I clearly understood!!! Just because I'm a pale light skinned dude does not mean I do not speak or understand Spanish you duo of loser backward non-English commanding uneducated PUTAS! I even asked the other border crosser if she could gimme the adjusted order receipt not including the just returned Frosty and she rudely refused to do it!

I was starting to get very upset but what really did it for me was when she gave me back my change for the unwanted Frosty. Yeah, that was fine and dandy, but where the f**k was my change for the rest of my order? Out of a $20 bill I gave that wetback, I only got $2.15 and where tha hell was the rest you illiterate mojada? She claimed she had already given it to me, yet there I sat in my car, this "WHITEBOY WHO CANNOT POSSIBLY SPEAK ESPAñOL" like an idiot loser holding only two and change for a ten dollar or so order. Was it my mistake, or hers? It got to a point where FATASS MANAGER Edgar (who enjoys Wendy's burgers and Frosties one too many and it shows) came in to supposedly resolve the situation by bringing out receipts and shit and finally after about ten minutes he refused to give me my change claiming PENDEJA #1 had already given it to me.

Was it the rudeness of this whole ordeal that made me forget my first bit of change that PERRA claims to have given me? Or did I really get shorted? At this point, I have racked and racked my brain, but to no avail. Let's just say I left that Wendy's very displeased but not without telling misMANAGER EDGARCITO that he should advise his two shrews to use caution and discretion when speaking Spanish in front of customers that they assume will not understand them when THEY MIGHT OR WILL. And I told him in clear fluent Spanish too!

There you have it. I'm very proud of my Hispanic heritage. And dreadfully ashamed of those who taint it, like the worthless trio of SPICS at Wendy's last night. I'm never going to Wendy's again, but first I gotta get a hold of headquarters and report this most insulting experience with these vile heathens.

Dios me dé paciencia. (God grant me patience.)

Poor Scott Peterson. Off You Go Chucky!

Robert Blake and O.J. got away with murder, why couldn't Scott Peterson? WOW! What a loser! Such a handsome guy, now on death row, prime juicy meat for buttrape or murder from another inmate even! So what if Robert Blake went free, the guy is so insane, he's well on his way to joining O.J. on the golf course and completely losing his mind for good.

Mario Vásquez is now so adorably cute to me ever since he abandoned American Idol to pursue whatever. I'd so like to bone him. The only thing I hate is the way he and everyone else pronounce his last name. It’s not VASKWEZ, it's VASKEZ! UGH! GET IT RIGHT! It’s Spanish folks, and it would help if at least it sounded a little less irritating once the name is anglicized.

Our Last Hope! He Was Seduced By The Dark Side and So Were We!

Opens May 19, 2005!

My co-worker William just showed me the new Star Wars trailer and it looks nothing short of spectacular! I am praying and hoping Mr. George Lucas can finally redeem himself after giving us the last two fairly mediocre films in the series. It looks quite dark and menacing as we see the complete transformation of Anakin Skywalker into Darth Vader!

I'm really excited though about Ian McDiarmid, the actor portraying the evil emperor. He's got a real meaty role here. Keeping my fingers crossed and hoping this movie delivers...

Gays of Our Lives

Here's hoping the fight goes all the way, and that gay marriage finally gets approved. We have so many more important problems in this world, I cannot believe that in this day and age people would get so worked up against allowing people basic rights. Get over it and just let it happen so we can get to the things that truly matter!

http://apnews.myway.com/article/20050315/D88RE1400.html

Nous sommes dans la merde!

Yeah so I took four years of French back in high school (what about 13 years ago or so?), and I was pretty good and learned a lot. Knowing another language based on Latin (Spanish at home) helped me tremendously to pick up French quickly back then. However, due to its limited use in California, I had all but shelved the language of Paris for the past twelve years or so.

That is, until I started working at my current job, which looks like the roster of the United Nations or something to that effect. Here I ran into a social worker who understood my French perfectly, but who wouldn't answer me due to her forgetting how to speak it. She told me though I had an impeccable accent, as did another visitor to our office from Vietnam who said I spoke very well. Just about six months ago, I found the true hammer to my nail, my co-worker Alex, who speaks French very well after learning it in school alongside English back in Iraq. We have never ceased to speak it since, and in just these past few months, all the French I thought I'd forgotten has come back beautifully! It's amazing! I'm so excited to be practicing it once again and to be so fluent, more than I ever thought possible!

Too bad those uppity conceited frogs in Europe gave us the language, but oh well. Everything one learns is never in vain, and can always come back to help you one day.

Europe here I come! When? I dunno, but soon...

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/French_language

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spanish_language

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/English_language

DIE! DIE! DIE!

WHAT A PRICK OF THE FIRST KIND! This guy is a cold-hearted/blooded asshole!

They caught him, but he's done so much harm already. Ah man, I hate sharing the Planet with such scum.

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/7157845/

Just Great!

So there I was yesterday bitching about not getting enough comments on my blog entries, and now I come to find that the "comments" section is down and not working throughout the blogger system! WHAT GIVES MAN?! Oh well. Not like it matters for my lackluster blog anyway.

At least it's Friday.

Oh wait! They just found the bug and fixed it. Nevermind. And yes, it's still Friday.

I GIVE UP! IT WENT DOWN YET AGAIN!

No, now it's working. Let's just say, f**k it and move on, shall we?

Working Class Hero

As soon as you're born they make you feel small
By giving you no time instead of it all
Till the pain is so big you feel nothing at all
A working class hero is something to be
A working class hero is something to be

They hurt you at home and they hit you at school
They hate you if you're clever and they despise a fool
Till you're so fucking crazy you can't follow their rules
A working class hero is something to be
A working class hero is something to be

When they've tortured and scared you for twenty odd years
Then they expect you to pick a career
When you can't really function you're so full of fear
A working class hero is something to be
A working class hero is something to be

Keep you doped with religion and sex and TV
And you think you're so clever and classless and free
But you're still fucking peasants as far as I can see
A working class hero is something to be
A working class hero is something to be

There's room at the top they are telling you still
But first you must learn how to smile as you kill
If you want to be like the folks on the hill
A working class hero is something to be
A working class hero is something to be

If you want to be a hero well just follow me
If you want to be a hero well just follow me
--John Lennon from the Plastic Ono Band album

"Plastic Ono Band" was John Lennon's debut solo album after the break up of the Beatles. It was released on Dec. 11, 1970.

Please Comment on This Entry and Make Me Feel Important! WA WA WAAAAA!!!

BREAKING NEWS: Martha Stewart’s out of jail (you already knew that didn’t you?) and Michael Jackson may just go to the slammer (not for molesting Sesame Street viewers) but for showing up late to his ongoing trial consistently. From what I just heard, he just got to court a few minutes ago, in the most comical and ridiculous old sick patient mode ever, to get sympathy from the judge no doubt, who wants to throw the book at him. Ah Jacko, you are priceless.

I constantly run into other people’s blogs out of curiosity and find myself quite confused at some of their ramblings! Either only their close friends understand what the hell they’re talking about, or these people are just part of the growing blog community that thinks each and all their thoughts are interesting and worth posting. It all looks like Greek to me at times, even though they’re written in English. Sometimes I wonder myself why I even bother keeping a blog! Is it for my own personal satisfaction or for others to enjoy my own personal little "show?" Truth be told, it is kind of narcissistic isn’t it? I so hate it when I write an entry that I feel is a "masterpiece" and then days later there are 0 f**kin’ comments below it. I know people have probably read it, but how do I know? Yet on these other blogs, people amass so many comments, their sites seem to take on a life of their own! ARGH! ENVY! I FEEL ENVY! LOLOLOLOL!

I was happy last night to hang out with my very dear and beloved group of male buddies once again. When I am with David, Johnny, and Sonny and all we do is sit around watching TV and talking sh*t, I truly feel happy. These guys are all funny and witty in their own special way, they’re all laid-back (except when our Southern Belle David gets dramatic and turns into THEE Scarlet O’Hara in his attitude), and very fun and comforting to be around. They all truly do have great wit and most importantly good hearts. I can be myself around them and never feel constrained or self-conscious, which is so nice to have. I don’t know how long our little group will last, but for the past year or so, it has been quite fulfilling to have these cool guys in my life, for I love them so.

Talk about sending chills down my spine! Last night as I was going to bed, I had the Coast To Coast AM with George Noory show on my radio, and they had an expert woman on the air talking about the mindset and modus operandi of serial killers. It was really f**kin’ freaky and endlessly fascinating. She went through the whole list of them, from Jack the Ripper to the recent BTK Killer that was just caught. She said the one thing that identifies all of these disturbed individuals is their total lack of conscience/love, they’re all male, they come from good backgrounds/happy childhoods, and they are found throughout the world and during all of recorded history.

http://www.coasttocoastam.com/shows/2005/03/09.html#recap

I was looking over my shoulder last night just as I was going to bed, kinda creeped out for sure.

Yes Virginia, there might be WMD's after all...

HOLY FREAKIN' CRAP MAN! My co-worker Christa made the light bulb go off in my head this morning! Why all that fuss last week about Bush and crew telling the Syrians to pull out of Lebanon? It's all starting to make sense, but in this humble writer's opinion, the WMD's were indeed hidden in the Beqaa Valley of Lebanon and other various Syrian sites to avoid discovery in Iraq.

And today this:

Thousands Answer Hezbollah Call in Beirut

Well yes my dear Hezbollah, you don't want the Syrians to leave, they support your terrorist tactics and the place you call home is probably loaded with Saddam's weapons! HOW INTERESTING! THE PLOT THICKENS DOES IT NOT?! Bush and Co. now realize, know, and are ready to inspect and reveal that the Weapons of Mass Destruction are indeed at the Syrian-Lebanese border as had been suspected for quite some time.

READ ON:

http://www.debka.com/article.php?aid=780

http://www.debka.com/article.php?aid=482

http://www.freerepublic.com/focus/f-news/1012679/posts

http://www.freerepublic.com/focus/f-news/970161/posts

It's all so fishy, slowly making sense. I don't approve of Bush 100%, but if he can prove his case here and rid us of this scourge, more power to him.

And no, it wasn't a Lifetime chick flick...

So, my soul mate Mikey has been insisting that I watch Disney's Brother Bear for the past year or so on DVD and I kept putting it off until I was ready I guess. I finally sat down and watched it yesterday afternoon. I haven't seen a movie so emotionally moving and stirring like this in a long time. Yes, it brought me to true actual tears, what a wonderful story this was! Bravo to all involved in this most beautiful film, and screw the critics and others who tried to endlessly compare this to Finding Nemo, which was in itself a great film, but very different from Brother Bear.

Do yourself a favor and give this film a chance. You'll see what I mean. Pure love is truly a wonderful thing.

http://imdb.com/title/tt0328880/

Too Much of The Force Is With You!

As of late, I'm obsessed with anything and everything to do with this film franchise (especially the beloved trilogy I grew up with), which makes me wonder if I am truly a geek/nerd with no life.

I Hate Animal Suffering!

I'm not a vegetarian yet, but I still consider myself an animal rights activist and this kind of stuff just kills me.

http://www.sun-sentinel.com/news/local/southflorida/sfl-33strandeddolphins,0,4377682.story?coll=sfla-news-sfla

"I'd like to thank my pet dog Laika, my agent John Weisberg, my dildo..."

A slight oncoming cold Imma battling perhaps? COLD-EEZE to the rescue!

Congratulations to all of last night's winners, some seemingly more deserving than others, but that's the case every year when the awards are handed out.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/77th_Academy_Awards

I have to admit, I am very very happy to see Morgan Freeman finally get awarded for not just Million Dollar Baby, but symbolically for a whole body of work for which he has consistently been tremendously wonderful in.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Morgan_Freeman

And oh, did anybody else notice this?! I did, and it made me wonder how big the stick up Sean Penn's ass is!

http://www.hollywood.com/news/detail/article/2435529

Rebel With A Cause?!

Let me get this straight (excuse the pun). I'm 30 years old, have never drunk as much alcohol in my life as I am doing now (still in relative moderation mind you), am partying into the wee hours of the night about two/three nights a week, getting some good nookie thank you very much, and am possibly considering the use of marijuana (for the first time ever in my life!) sometime soon. Either I'm an immature bastard, never truly went wild in my earlier days, or have simply lost my mind.

"They're miracles those songs." -- Bono of U2 on The Beatles.

So there I was, just the other night, listening to some extraordinary remastered digital CD 's of music made forty years ago or so. Which is why I am now finally making time to write about my favorite band of all time!

Well yeah, it's pretty cliché and some would say way overrated, but that would be The Beatles. Simply put, they are modern music's greatest achievement for many many already stated reasons. They were the first music group to write and perform all their material. The songwriting of John Lennon, Paul McCartney, and George Harrison to this day remains unchallenged as the best ever in modern pop/rock music due to its incredible diversity, variety, and innovation. They introduced recording techniques and album release methods never before tried and now often imitated. Because of them, bands now tour the world. It is due to them that many bands were formed and came after when other young people decided that they too would pick up a guitar or learn to play the drums and form their own groups. And last but not least, the world's greatest Liverpudlians ever, are responsible for not only selling the most albums in history (one billion worldwide!), but for creating lasting music that to this day resonates with every age group alive and yet to come.

What is remarkable to me is that as much unquestionable support as The Beatles still have to this day, there are many who dismiss them as too light and not hardcore enough, which is totally missing the point. Sure, great bands like The Rolling Stones, Led Zeppelin, Van Halen, and Nirvana have outrocked the Beatles without question. But the Beatles wrote music that appeals to all, including those hardcore rock songs (Helter Skelter, Paperback Writer, and Revolution come to mind) that detractors often mention as lacking in The Beatles' repertoire. They were not a band that was going to be content with writing only headbanger songs. They needed to display and show the world what was truly going on in their brilliant diverse little minds.

I am astounded at the diversity and variety of their catalogue: ballads, instrumentals, bubble-gum pop, rock, cabaret, acoustic, psychedelic, classical, country, hippie, blues, existential, heavy, catchy, folk, etc. One need just purchase and listen to their 1968 release The White Album to acknowledge that these guys were true geniuses in every sense of the word. A complete music group that could play in and out of every genre possible. Something other bands then and even now don't dare do for fear of alienating their fans. This is the essence of the Fab Four, and why I like and admire them so much. The diversity, variety, and spectacular sound of their music sounds just as good today, as if these songs were recorded just yesterday! Beautiful melodies and gorgeous vocal harmonies that are second to none.

John Lennon is my favorite Beatle due to his cynical witty personality. Paul McCartney is to be admired for his amazing diversity and instrumental skills. George Harrison is underrated and to be admired more for some truly f**king great songs that he wrote for the group. And last but not least, Ringo Starr, for some decent drumming skills and the intelligence to admit that although he knew was the least talented; he was the one with the best heart and soul of them all.

Two Beatles are now sadly gone way before their time, and two remain. In my eyes however, and in millions of others the world over, The Beatles are all alive and well in their recordings and will continue to be forevermore.

Further reading:
http://www.allmusic.com/cg/amg.dll?p=amg&sql=11:hifrxqw5ldse~T1

http://www.rockonthenet.com/artists-b/beatles_main.htm

http://www.rollingstone.com/artist/bio/_/id/61025/thebeatles?pageid=rs.Artistcage&pageregion=artistHeader

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Beatles

Someday, Animals Shall Inherit the Earth.

This is the kind of story that only reiterates my view that animals are wonderful living creatures that deserve the utmost respect and admiration, and that we humans do nothing but destroy, overreact, kill, and f**k up this beautiful place called Planet Earth.

http://www.whittierdailynews.com/Stories/0,1413,207%7E24660%7E2728279,00.html

IT F**CKIN' ROCKS BABY!

U2 - Vertigo Lyrics
Album: How To Dismantle An Atomic Bomb

¡Uno, dos, tres, catorce!
Turn it up loud, captain
Lights go down
It's dark, the jungle is
Your head can't rule your heart
A feeling so much stronger
Than a thought
Your eyes are wide
And though your soul
It can't be bought
Your mind can wander
Hello, hello
¡Hola!
I'm at a place called Vertigo
¿Dónde está?
It's everything I wish I didn't know
Except you give me something I can feel
Feel
The night is full of holes
These bullets rip the sky
Of ink with gold
They twinkle
As the boys play rock and roll
They know that they can't dance
At least they know
I can't stand the beats
I'm asking for the check
Girl with crimson nails
Has Jesus 'round her neck
Swinging to the music
Swinging to the music
Hello, hello
¡Hola!
I'm at a place called Vertigo
¿Dónde está?
everything I wish I didn't know
But you give me something I can feel
Feel
Shot dead
Shots fall
Show me, yeah
All of this, all of this can be yours
All of this, all of this can be yours
All of this, all of this can be yours
Just give me what I want
And no one gets hurt
Hello, hello
¡Hola!
We’re at a place called Vertigo
¿Dónde está?
lights go down and all I know
Is that you give me something
I can feel your love teaching me how
Your love is teaching me how
How to kneel
Kneel
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

A Veces, La Vida Es Una Mierda (Sometimes, Life Is A Pile of Shit).

It's very early Sunday morning, and I am livid and upset! F**K MAN! Just hours ago Saturday evening, my toilet got clogged and overflooded, my mother screamed her lungs out at me for the mess, the cleanup effort was a nightmare, traffic on the freeway was horrendous, my pants are now a wrinkled mess thanks to having to wait for someone else's clothes to finish in the dryer, and this nonstop RAIN are all enough and then some to drive me up the wall! I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE!! That one weekend of rain back in January was enough, and now we're in the middle of another endless rainstorm! ARGH!!! Haven't we had enough f**ckin' rain??!!!

I'm whining, I'm pissed, depressed, upset, and am finally going to bed now close to 5a.m.

At least I got to see Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind on DVD in between all my rage and it was a pretty good movie.

'Cause this is THRILLER! EEK!

My once-childhood idol is now a certifiable weirdo. But is he a child molester?! God, I really hope not. I really do. But with all the accusations and his behavior/appearance, it's hard not to wonder.

Back to the grind. Of my teeth?

O.k. so my trial is over. An unfortunate drunk man fell to his death trying to get off an MTA bus hitting the back of his head on the concrete below. The plaintiff felt the driver and the MTA were responsible, thus was seeking monetary compensation.

This case had frivolous lawsuit written all over it, and some of my fellow jurors felt that way from beginning to end, but as I heard the human story behind it, and the loss of this human being, I felt very sympathetic and emotional about the whole situation. I was disgusted at the imcompetent plaintiff lawyer whom at times did have some bright moments where he shone through, totally turned on by one of the expert witnesses (a handsome older man who caught my attention BIG TIME!), and really disappointed and disheartened by the racism and prejudice of some of the jurors in their decision only because the man killed and his girlfriend were illegal Mexican immigrants.

In the end, the unanimous vote was to not blame the driver nor the MTA for this terrible accident, it just happened to be an unfortunate mistake the drunken man made in his alcoholic state as he misstepped off the bus. The evidence proved it so. I came out of there a sad man, not wanting to be as judgmental (as some of my other fellow disgusting jurors were) about the fact he was drunk and that it "WAS HIS FAULT" that he died.

We all make mistakes. And sometimes, we pay for them dearly. Personal responsibility is a very important forgotten concept nowadays. For the most part, we are who we've chosen to be.

Till judgment day...adieu.

To The Finish Line!

My jury duty is almost over. We've reached the deliberation part of the case. I must say however, I've gotten spoiled now in this week and a half away from work. Listening to testimony can be boring at times, but it sure beats being at work! Downtown L.A. is quite beautiful and there's lots to see and do. Those of us that live in the suburbs or the Valley should really appreciate it more often as it really is a true rich cultural center with lots to offer.

I am happy to rediscover my hometown this way.

Almodóvar astonishes us yet again!

I just went to see La mala educación (Bad Education), another stunningly captivating bizarre film by Spain's crazy director, Pedro Almodóvar. I was so confused, and yet in the end it all made sense. Thank you again to Mexico's (and possibly the world's) finest living young actor Gael García Bernal for yet another amazing performance in this most intriguing film. This guy's movies never disappoint!

Some reviews:

http://www.rottentomatoes.com/m/bad_education/?bc=42

A heartfelt thought.

A friend of mine lost his mother to cancer this past week. All my thoughts and prayers go out to his family at this difficult time.

Mrs. Fong, you're in good hands now, the gracious loving hands of God.

R.I.P.

UPDATE!!! WE GOT LINKS! NOT THE SAUSAGE KIND THOUGH.

I finally figured out how to add links of interest to my blog! Scroll down and look to the right side below ARCHIVES list. VOILA!

More links to come...

DOOM & GLOOM

I hate to be the bearer of more bad news, but gay/bisexual men who use hardcore drugs and have unprotected anal sex are really risking it. WE GOTTA WAKE UP MAN! THIS IS SOME SCARY SHIT! JESUS!

http://www.bloomberg.com/apps/news?pid=10000103&sid=azBO_AumTJhs

http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/medicalnews.php?newsid=19637

Food for lots of thought, huh?

Truly eerie man. Really.

http://www.coasttocoastam.com/gen/page818.html

"So much to do, and so little time." - Jack Nicholson as THE JOKER.

O.k. Let's see if I can actually recap all the shit that is going on.

North Korea and their midget psychopathic dictator came clean that OH YES they can annihilate us with their nukes, the U.S. is threatening Iran to stop making atomic warfare, Prince Charles (DUMBO) is finally marrying that nasty buck-toothed Afghan Hound Camilla Parker Bowles whom he always loved above and beyond Princess Diana, Michael Jackson is on trial for boy probing (Corey Feldman too perhaps? If he can remember!), Bill Cosby is being accused of female fondling, American Idol is admittedly and embarassingly entertaining, Condy Rice is now Superstar Secretary O' State, Israel and Palestine agreed to a truce(short-lived for sure), cancer now kills more Americans than heart disease, Iraq is still WARHELL, and last but not least:

I am still alive. Thank God.

I know I forgot something but oh well. Till next time.

Doing my civic duty.

O.k. this jury duty thingy ain't so bad after all. Now that I've been chosen on this case, it's a little more laid-back and with all the breaks and extra long lunch break, it's a pretty good deal. The traffic from the Valley into Downtown L.A. and on the way back home however is a different story. DEAR CHRIST ALMIGHTY.

UGH! UGH!

I thought doing jury duty would be more fulfilling and/or exciting than my current dead-end trabajo, but I'm bored to tears! The case I've been assigned is excrutiatingly annoying. I can't say more. Hoping to get out of it, but who knows? I'm writing this from the Superior Court itself. Gotta run!

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORING!

I've had one of those very apathetic lethargic weeks where I feel as though I'm going nowhere nor accomplishing anything in my life. I haven't been to the gym in two months or so now, my job has reached a horrid dead end, and I find myself living vicariously through the experiences of others and wondering, "WHY HAVEN'T I TRIED THAT?" or "WHAT THA HELL AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE?"

Sad to be 30 years old and not know my purpose on this planet. Really sad. I need friends and company right now more than ever...

AH YES, POLITICAL CARTOONS!

It's more like a vacation.

Lest anyone think Martha Stewart's current prison gig is unjust, the bitch has got it made once she gets out sometime soon, and I say, more power to her!

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/6902108/

It's Groundhog Day, so effin' what?!

So much to write and talk about, I don't even know where to begin, or if to EVEN begin. I keep exposing my blog to more and more of my friends, at the risk of having them know more of my personal details than I would like them to! But that's the point of the whole thing isn't it?

Elections were just held in Iraq, and they're calling it a success, although that's almost debatable and laughable due to the fact that suicide bombers still killed several voters and a huge amount of potential voters stayed home due to the threats. Our whole purpose in Iraq sounds good, an ideal dream of establishing a true democracy in the middle of such a hornet's nest, but the cost and sacrifice is so great. I guess we wouldn't have won WWII, had we not believed in the cause then huh? Michael Moore and crew of course, would be up for arguing with me on that one I'm sure.

My stomach recently turned last week at having to listen to a fellow ex-Soviet co-worker here doubt the deserved merits of the United States of America and its role in having defeated Nazism and the evil Japanese Empire during WWII. The sheer and utter nerve of the bitch to claim it was the Soviets who saved the day! Sure, they did help in stopping the Nazis and rounding lots of them up, but only because the Germans invaded Russian territory! It was an obvious defense move and in part it was thanks to America that victory was even possible! It makes me cringe that we have so many immigrants to this country that do not appreciate or give this country credit for the things it has done for the world and its citizens. Yes, we are from perfect, and many mistakes have been and continue to be committed, but for the most part, I believe in this country wholeheartedly, despite its current atrocious anti-gay policies. Call me a naive patriot or a foolish moron, but anyone who does not thank their lucky stars that they're living in the greatest land on Earth due to all the heroic and valiant men and women who gave up their lives for true causes deserve Darth Vader's quote from the original Star Wars film, "You are part of a Rebel Alliance and a traitor!"

I'm in a lustful mood again, but what else is new? I'm drawing a blank as to what else to mention in this entry, so if anything else occurs to me...