THE BOMBING OF LIBYA.

I had an upset stomach on Tuesday and now I have some sort of allergy/cold and one of my teeth is in severe pain that comes and goes! Sensitive tooth?! DAMN I HOPE IT ALL F*CKING GOES AWAY! ARGH!

Yeah, I was pretty sad to hear of Elizabeth Taylor's passing, but the gal lived a good full amazing life, so it's bearable. We all gotta die one day and poor Liz was terribly weak and sick and in lots of pain so it was time. 79 years old. Not a bad run at all for one of the most famous women in history. I'd blogged about Liz before here and here. A great heart and soul and EYES to die for of course! R.I.P.

The reason the Japanese were hit by that massive quake is because they are being punished for their perversions! I'm kidding of course. Did the Japanese invent the Fleshlight? I'd like to buy one of these contraptions and try it out. Hey, the life of a single man is tough ok? And then a bud of mine points out these hysterical masturbation toys that WERE invented in Japan. JUST IN TIME FOR EASTER! LOL! I had seen them recently at the local sex shop but truly had no idea what they were until he explained it all to me this week. Mighty tempting! And then there's this thing that looks like some sort of device one would use in outer space! AHAHAHAHAHAH! All I need now is an astronaut suit, a helmet, and I'm ready to be launched in a rocket to the moon with my sex toy...

This blog post is short, but sweet. Let's look back at the once stunning Elizabeth! Yep, that's her late best bud MJ singing:

THE GREAT JAPANESE QUAKE OF 2011.

Long week at work, but all is well I suppose. Another video clip follows for you kids. Hope you enjoy! I started doing push-ups at work whenever I get the chance thanks to inspiration from my co-worker/friend Rivers, and I've gotten quite strong! I could barely do five when I first started last week and now I'm up to doing twenty in a row almost effortlessly! WOW! Muscle memory they call it? I'm even starting to look a little more toned, or is it my imagination? I know I'm eating a lot, and other co-workers are shocked by the amount of food I shove into my mouth--it's a combination of having a fast metabolism, stress, and the recent exercise I've been doing that is making me so hungry. Now I gotta get some squats and crunches into my "workouts" and I'll be on a roll. I've gained some weight too, which is great news for a such a lean dude like myself, but I'm also starting to see a bit of a gut, which is actually kind of sexy. LOLOL! Okay, watch this and tell me what you think:

HOW MUCH IS GAS THIS WEEK?!

I finally have a decent camcorder thanks to my new smartphone, although I'm learning that I have to keep my clips within a reasonable time frame in order to successfully upload them to YouTube. Ya see, in my own twisted warped NARCISSISTIC mind, I am a very smart funny witty important superstar individual with interesting things to say and talk about and I could go on and on and on like some long-winded Oscar acceptance speech. In reality, much of what I have to say is a bunch of baloney BS, but I want you to please watch and comment anyway. Please enlighten and entertain me just as much as I do you. Thanks! Oh yeah, this clip does end quite suddenly as I accidentally pushed a wrong button or something, but it certainly is a fitting parting shot:

THE LIBYAN REVOLUTION.

It's been a while since I've discussed malignant narcissism! LOL! Carlos Estevez! Better known to you and me as Charlie Sheen. This fool is one piece of work. Lemme tell ya something, the dude is out of control: a drug addict, overpaid, obnoxious, conceited, and just plain disastrous in every possible way, Charlie is a classic malignant narcissist. Once married to that very pretty Denise Richards with whom he had kids with, this guy is self-absorbed, selfish, and narcissistic in every way. No regard for anyone but HIMSELF. WHEW! I really dislike this man a lot. CBS finally had the common sense to yank his very successful sitcom Two and a Half Men off the air due to really mean things Sheen said about the show's creator. Sheen was born into privilege thanks to his legendary actor father and is so damn fortunate to have had a decent film career and a hit TV show of his own where he gets paid tons of cash for basically playing himself, but he does not see this at all of course, and takes it completely for granted. I'm waiting for the day he overdoses! YAY! The guy has been involved in tons of scandals for years now; too numerous that I've lost track or count really. He likes prostitutes, porn stars, and cocaine a lot. AHAHAHHAAH! Hey, he can do what he wants with his life I suppose, but Sheen is a father and he drags other people down with him-THIS IS WHY narcissists are so dangerous and destructive; they do not take other people's feelings/emotions into consideration at all! I cannot imagine what a nightmare it must have been being married to this dude. I'm sorry Denise. YIKES! Actually he's been married several times and had tons of women. OH BOY.

END TIMES! My good friend in San Diego always says that when we discuss the massively disturbing events happening all over the world. I love to have fun; I really do despite my dreary mood swings. I love to laugh, eat, sing, and screw. But you cannot deny that what is going on here on a GLOBAL SCALE is very very worrisome. Massive quakes, solar flares, people rioting all over the Middle East, economies collapsing, strange extreme weather, overpopulation, animals dying off, etc. DOOM AND GLOOM BABY! Those Mayans may have been onto something with that 2012 sh*t. Do you realize how truly bad the American economy is?! No, of course not. We've been busy watching football, Justin Bieber, and American Idol. IT IS GOING TO GET WORSE. Yes, you can be an eternal optimist, but reality is what it is. The price of gasoline alone lately should be a red flag! EEK! And food! Just the other day I went to get Mexican grub with my girl cousin and was shocked when I got so little change back! EXPENSIVE! Millions of Americans are struggling now. It is very sad. The gas and food prices alone are going to send many more into poverty they have never known. Inflation is here kids. IT IS TRULY HERE. And how is our once powerful DOLLAR doing? It's gonna collapse man. And people the world over are tired of starving, being unemployed, and neglected by the rich so they're losing it, especially dem Arabs! Government union jobs (like mine) are being cut and the backlash is going to be enormous. Austere measures are going to piss a lot of people off accustomed to their usual standard of living. The assault on the middle class has begun. IS ALL OF THIS LEADING US TOWARDS A NEW WORLD ORDER?! A ONE WORLD GOVERNMENT?! The whole system is falling apart! The world has always been chaotic and cruel, but this is at quite an unmatched scale! It is a fantastic and fascinating time to be alive! Stay tuned...

Some songs are just immortal and never go out of style. This is one of those classic tunes:

AS THE ARAB WORLD REVOLTS...

I'm going to talk about Lady Gaga. That's right. LADY F*CKING GAGA. Like the bitch needs any more attention/promotion?! It's taken a while for her to grow on me, since the pop music world has been sorely lacking for quite some time for a really STANDOUT performer, in my humble opinion. I know Beyoncé, Britney, Rihanna, Katy Perry, and Pink have a remarkable strong presence on the modern charts, but it is Lady Gaga that has now truly hit her stride to quite possibly become the biggest pop star on the planet. Elvis, The Beatles, Elton John, Michael Jackson, and of course Madonna have all been there before, and the endless comparisons with the latter are justified and understandable, but I do believe Lady Gaga is now her very own original entity. We've seen the bizarre costumes, looks, and personas on David Bowie and Elton John before, and the sexually provocative and engaging videos by Madonna in the past, and it has all now come to a perfect amalgamation into this one freakshow of a woman. Or is she a hermaphrodite?! LOL! The hilarious bizarre arrival to this past Sunday's Grammy Awards was a hoot; and her performance on stage was nothing short of brilliant and the true birth (hatching in this case, haha) of a superstar. She is definitely entertaining and truly talented; let Anderson Cooper show you. Or her appearance on Jay Leno perhaps? Or this gem clip in Tokyo? The woman can play the keys and sing for sure. The gay community has been crazy about her for a while now, but there I was simply observing and biding my time. I feel she came out of nowhere and just took off into the stratosphere quite frankly. She's kooky and maybe goes over the top, but I am now convinced and on TEAM GAGA. You can now call me a "Little Monster" I suppose? Her latest song has become an instant #1 hit. What must it be like to get noticed and talked about like this?! And what does the once trendsetting Madonna do now?! Her Royal Highness has already established herself and worked so very hard anyway right?

My teeth have never looked better. I've had my fair share of cavities and annoying distressing dental work, but never to the point of root canals. I hear those really hurt. Anyway, I've got nice truly clean teeth now thanks to my obsession with chewing gum right after meals or brushing them whenever I get the chance and more responsible recent visits to the dentist. I was fitted for an upper mouth guard at the dentist recently because I tend to grind while I'm asleep, but have found it hard to get used to wearing that weird thing. I have sensitive teeth, which can be kind of painful sometimes. I would love to truly whiten them, but am worried it's going to be very very harsh on my poor choppers which are still recovering from some inlays I had done late last year. At my last cleaning, while I was being flossed by the assistant, she was amazed at how no food particles were flying out of my pie hole. "I don't need to teach you how to floss, you seem to do it well." I would hope everyone would! EW! POOR ORAL HYGIENE on a lover can send me running far FAR away never to return.

My car brakes and tires are done! I did not mind spending money for that, since it's nice to have a car in LA and be able to go wherever. It was however, very upsetting to be towed recently. OUCH. A bit of a long story, but getting one's car towed is never fun, nor is having to pay for its release.

THE EGYPTIAN REVOLUTION.

I finally own a smartphone! This one to be exact. Aren't you proud of me? I think I've almost mastered how to use it in just one week's time. That's riveting WAT. So very f*cking riveting...

My car needs the front brakes repaired, new front tires, and the dents and crap fixed from that accident I had about a year ago. I need to clear all this junk post office mail from my room and just looking at it is driving me crazy. The search for a new place to live continues and the time to start cleaning out and throwing out unnecessary clutter is now. I'll tell ya the truth folks, I just don't want to get out of bed sometimes. I find my life overwhelming in many ways right now. Yes, I am overly sensitive okay?! HOW DO I STOP THAT BY THE WAY?! I easily break down or cry now like some wuss; ever since I got my heart crushed last year by that dude. UGH. I'm lucky in getting laid, but at true relationship-based love?! What a disaster! Yeah, life's really great right?! There's this dating website I recently joined and it astonishes me to sometimes read profiles where guys say they are loving life and they can't wait to welcome a new day! WOOHOO! REALLY?! LOLOLOL! That kind of amazing joy exists?! AHAHHAHAHA! Don't get me wrong I have plenty of happy moments, but Good Lord this existence annoys and frustrates me quite often. The grass always looks greener on the other side--yeah, that is so my issue. I often feel everyone else is living life to the fullest and I'm kind of just here cruising along. Actually, when I come to think of it, it's nice not to have children. I can't imagine having to support and tolerate one of those things, let alone have to bring them into this amazingly sick twisted world. I hope to return to my once carefree selfish way of living soon and forget this idea of wanting to be in love. I failed someone long ago who was very much into me and now I got punched in the face and gut and thrown into the middle of running traffic as karma perhaps? JUST GREAT. Life is good. HA.

My cousin has flown in from Oklahoma to stay with us the next few months and enrolled just yesterday into a medical assistant program at a school near downtown. Good for her I say! Jobs in the medical field are thriving, despite the still huge unemployment numbers. She said the weather out there right now is a nightmare; cold and snow everywhere. Harsh winter this season all over the country right? You'd never know it here in L.A. though. The weather has been nauseatingly beautiful. Every day there is sun and blue skies. Every day. EVERY. F*CKING. DAY. I want some clouds and rain damn it! I LOVE THE RAIN! I'm obviously living in the wrong city right? Time for Seattle or Portland baby! With my cousin in town, it will be a lot easier to move and her help will be desperately needed and appreciated. I like my cousin very much too. We get along very well and she seems to get me without judging me. We both have the same music tastes too which is very cool. She just might be my current favorite HAG. I realize I don't really have that many friends that are girls and my two favorites always keep in touch with me through the Internet. Jesus, what kind of homo am I that I don't have women friends?! I seem to gravitate towards men (gay or hetero) period! WOW. I never thought of this, but it's so true.

Damn I'm so straight and can't wait for the Super Bowl this weekend.

LARRY KING, WHERE HAVE YOU GONE?!

I have to move soon. YES. I am a victim of the disastrous housing crisis. Sometimes I feel like an utter failure for trying to own a place and not being able to continue with the outrageous mortgage and other fees after four and a half years. Oh well. At least we tried right? Life just does not turn out the way one would like at times. JUST GREAT. I'm kind of sad and feel a bit worthless. Ya gotta earn big bucks to own a place in this country, and EVEN THEN! Property taxes are ridiculous, the paperwork involved is atrocious, and the way this bank has treated me is beyond horrendous. These guys are EVIL. Pure and simple. I did everything in my power to refinance and submitted all kinds of documents to get them to help me during these tough times, and THEY DID NOT BUDGE. So, I am wishing these massive criminal A-HOLES nothing but terrible things. DIE. DIE! JUST DIEEEEEEEEEE! So what happens now? Well, my older brother Charles has to move out of his place soon too, so shall mom and her two sons live all together nice and happily ever after? LOL! Or should I move out on my own, or perhaps with a roomie?! OH MY GOD. What to do, what to do? Decisions, decisions! I am just so relieved I don't have to deal with the stress of the last few years anymore. It will be a great weight lifted off of my shoulders. I'm not looking forward to having to pack things up and moving them, but it will all be over soon; I will find a good place to put that noose on the ceiling, place it around my neck, and effectively kick the chair from underneath my feet...ahahahahhahahhaha! Saddam Hussein, you lucky bastard!

Yeah so I was stoned okay? And I wanted to prove my insane talent. This is strictly off the top of my head, so no copy was read; ten minutes of true improv. My voice changes several times, and I start off with a cheesy radio talk show and how it would sound in LA hosted by a middle-aged conservative married dickwad, the station identification for Mozart's music (I sound eerily like George Takei), a breaking news story on TV (Bernard Shaw then turns into Anderson Cooper with an awesome English dude in the mix), the stoned DJ, Spanish public access Christian talk radio, and the old Nightline intro?! LOLOL!

It's bizarre! Hope you enjoy:

TWO THOUSAND ELEVEN.

How was your New Year's?! I went to Palm Springs! Yeah, that was kind of out of character for me, since I rarely if ever take a road trip by myself, but I did not want to spend YET ANOTHER boring as f*ck New Year's Eve in Los Angeles. Ya see, after ringing in 2004 and 2005 in New Orleans, I've been forever spoiled; seems to me other places have a much better vibe and energy than my hometown to welcome a new year in. The drive to Palm Springs is about 90 minutes, which is very tolerable. My bud who lives out there was kind enough to let me stay at his place for two nights. Palm Springs was so very cold, but it was fun too! I went to this hotel to a huge happening party on December 31! I still can't get over how beautiful this place is! WOW! The party was really fun and quite deafening. This is the song that will most stick with me from that great crazy night. Lots of homos from LA were there. The music man! THE MUSIC WAS SO GOOD BUT SO GOD DAMN LOUD! UGH! I could feel my internal organs vibrating within my ribcage man! I got to this shindig around 10:30pm and left at about 3am. I'll never forget the night sky as I left the party--it was so crystal clear and gorgeous; I think I saw stars and planets I'd never noticed before. I got very sentimental in Palm Springs at times; I had to let go of all the pain and suffering of 2010 and so far my new year has started off pretty nicely.

So here's the deal. My late mean narcissistic father was nice to me sometimes and did once tell me long ago that I have a nice radio voice. Ever since I started doing most of the announcements and paging of people at work recently, I get compliments left and right by most of the staff there that I am one crystal clear sexy-sounding dude! This is most flattering folks! I did try my hand at some light voiceover work a while ago, but I've never really pursued it. I mean, I am in the right town for this right? I don't even know where to begin though. UGH. I often feel I have all these amazing talents and they're just wasting away. GOD. But I do need to have a real job and income folks, because even though I'm a mostly artistic individual, I can't afford to f*cking starve, so I need to begrudgingly work at a day job. And this town is so very competitive; who doesn't do voiceover work here?! The really good and lucky ones like the cast of The Simpsons make millions. Must be nice. Anyway, I guess I'll continue to enjoy my celebrity-like status at work and endless compliments from men and women alike. Actually, I believe it's mostly women who love my voice. I must be making many of them feel very erotic or something. HAHA!

Speaking of great voices -- a marvelous actor with depression issues? We're all human after all:

GOOD RIDDANCE 2010.

I warn you, as soon as my voice comes in, the sound is BOOMING LOUD! LOL! My apologies, I was a bit overly excited with my opening song choice. Anyway, watch/listen to this clip and I hope you enjoy it and comment! 2010 is over! HALLELUJAH! I'm looking forward to the chaos and awesomeness of 2011!! WOOHOO! JULIAN ASSANGE FOREVER! LMAO!

CHRISTMAS 2010

I'm behind on blogging. It's Christmas. BLAH! It's almost over thank goodness. Nice meal made by my mom yesterday though. YUMMY!

The battle to find a smartphone! ARGH! I can't freakin' decide, but I will be upgrading soon finally! Sprint gives me a "discount" starting in January, and my contract with them is due in March. I dunno what to do. Boost Mobile seems cool in that it has no contract and gives you the Blackberry Curve device for 200 bucks and $60 a month service. That sounds dirt cheap to me. The girl at the Sprint store yesterday told me it was better to stay with Sprint and gave me the whole spiel about why they were better than the no contract companies and blah blah blah. There's the trendy and overadvertised iPhone of course. But their carrier AT&T sucks I hear and it gets expensive and the touch screen does sound a bit irritating. I've tested it, and it does kind of get cumbersome for my large fingers to touch the small screen. Then there's the Android phones, which I have no idea what they're all about! Sprint does have the cool HTC EVO, which does seem pretty awesome. Well, I'll eventually decide, and one of these amazing new modern phones will be in my possession. Then again, is having access to the Internet at all times really THAT important?! I can only stomach Facebook for so long, and I find that most weekends I am disconnected from the Net for the most part and it is quite liberating. Anyway, I've heard all kinds of suggestions from everyone at this point. What say YOU on a good smartphone?!

I'm going to write a few words here on the British Royal Family. This pack of lazy bastards! ARGH! I hate Queen Elizabeth and her annoying mean-looking twit husband. And don't even get me started on Prince Charles and that ugly whore Camilla! F*CK these people! They are a bunch of snobs and a**holes. I like Sarah Ferguson a lot for being so down-to-earth, and I did have much respect for the late Princess Diana, even though she seemed a bit moody and emotionally depressed most of the time. But then again, I can totally identify with her in that she was an astrological Cancer and so am I! She seemed like a really nice humanitarian woman, caught up in that stuffy rigid annoying atmosphere which nearly drove her insane. Let's face it, she was used to breed those two handsome boys and then tossed aside by Charles and the family. Probably was murdered by them too. Anyway, I do like William and Harry, although Lord only knows what happened to Wills looks, because he used to be really attractive, but now he looks bald and old and his bride is not that much better in my opinion, but their wedding next year is going to be HUGE I presume so ok then.

Anyway, I hope to blog before the year is up, but if I don't, I will return soon. I promise.

HOWARD STERN SIGNS FOR FIVE MORE YEARS ON SATELLITE RADIO!

I wanna thank all of you who loyally read this blog and comment! MERCI!

What tha hell is going on here?! WHAT AN INSANE AND AWESOME STORY THIS IS! JULIAN ASSANGE! I love the way his name just rolls off my tongue! LOLOLOL! Say it with me: JULIAN ASSANGE! This Australian dude is apparently the guy that was running Wikileaks, which was shut down by the government for recently releasing top secret classified information. He was arrested and is now in London on sexual assault charges, but it's a bunch of baloney and an obvious ruse; the U.S. government is just pissed that this guy has taken freedom of expression to a whole new level--this is an international espionage story of epic proportions man! I dunno how you feel, but this guy is my HERO! LMAO! Read this article here. Man, there is tons of information on this massive story all over the Internet, so you won't have any trouble finding ample stuff on this incredible tale. Fierce supporters of Assange have now begun hacking and shutting down major websites like Visa, MasterCard, and even Sarah Palin's site I believe, in support of this most subversive and controversial figure. Amazon.com might even be next! Listen kids, I dunno how this all got so big, but it has, and in the midst of our worldwide depression, this is one story I am really enjoying! HAHAHHAAHHA! I LOVE CHAOS! ANARCHY! WOOHOOOOOOOOO! Time Magazine, JULIAN ASSANGE has to be your Person of the Year 2010, without a doubt!

I have recently discovered the culinary joy of eating trail mix. Can you believe it?! My co-worker/bud got me addicted to his nuts. HEE! Love me dem nuts! Yeah yeah, crack a gay joke or two if ya like. PHOOEY! When I was a kid, I didn't even wanna go near peanuts, hazelnuts, almonds, etc. Now?! MY GOD MAN! I think I'm addicted to this stuff! DELICIOUS AND NUTRITIOUS! And I have been reading that nuts have good cholesterol and can actually help in gaining healthy weight which I think I have been actually achieving. Yes dude, for years I've been ingesting all that crappy junk food like crackers, chips, and cookies which are really not good for you, so I say substitute it with more fruits and trail mix baby. I'm noticing that as I get older, all that sugary and salty snack food I used to enjoy as a kid is now kind of grossing me out. Is this a normal reaction? All the healthy more bland plain stuff I am now liking more. Weird. I guess one's taste buds do change. YAY FOR TRAIL MIX!

This is truly an incredible song:

CHER IS OLDER THAN ISRAEL.

I'll tell you what: I don't hate anybody okay? I don't. So there we have Israel in the middle of a sea of hatred, and although I wanna believe that they have a right to exist and stuff, I've met quite a few people from Israel and they are not very nice. There. I said it. They are very full of themselves and quite f*cking rude! I guess this comes from being embittered and always on the defensive, but STILL MAN! YEESH! And I won't say it's all the Jews in general, because I've met some cool American ones, but it seems the hardcore Jewish folk from that area are really militant and mean. And the more I've delved into the history of how Israel came to be, the more annoyed I get to find how so many Palestinians were displaced and uprooted from their homes. I'm not siding with the Arabs either, although the men are f*cking hot (LOL), but I am not the U.S. government that allows and sanctions Israel to do as it wishes. As I've gotten older, I see the whole thing for what it is, and it is a bit disturbing to see how these poor Arabs are treated. It's kind of shitty. But anyway, what do I know? Our media only presents the Israeli side when they get terrorist-attacked, but there's more to this; both sides have blood on their hands as far as I'm concerned. Now someone please find me a hottie Arab to shag!

So I went to see Burlesque, mainly to please my mom and visiting cousin and while very entertaining on a visual level, the movie is quite made-for-TV retarded. Everyone is talking about how great Cher looks, but I disagree! I think she's acquired some sort of strange manly look and her lips been injected so many times she almost looks like a fish. LOL! Any of those professional male drag queens who play her can now safely get away with fooling people. Christina Aguilera is actually quite likable and decent in her role. Stanley Tucci is always fantastic of course. But my eyes were fixated on that amazing and incredibly hot piece of ass CAM GIGANDET. Life is not fair I tells ya. Why don't I look like that?! The camera loves this kid! And so did I! There were some pretty hot erotic scenes in the film, without being tasteless. I think at one point I wanted to actually cry; I was so upset I wasn't CAM or allowed to have him. AHAHAHAHA! I know, how f*cking gay. The musical numbers are very cool, but the plot like I said is just lame. LAME. My mom and cousin really liked the movie, but then again they don't have the existentialist annoying overanalyzing f*cked up brain that I do.

Cheers.

WAT ON WEBCAM!

I did not feel like writing, so out came my webcam and mic and here's the result:

IN MEMORIAM: PADDY THE DOG

This awesome little dog got terribly sick all of a sudden and had to be put to sleep this week. My friend who one day saw him as a puppy staring at him in the driveway of his house some 5 years ago gave this dog a good decent home and he was really funny and wonderful to be around. I will miss him and have cried over him, since I saw him practically every weekend.

My narcissistic crazy ex-lover and I have reached an amicable parting decision. He keeps insisting as of late like some sort of desperate lost soul that I return to "hang out" with him, but I very civilly and intelligently told him he had his chance earlier this year, and chose someone else instead, and that now I am irrevocably changed and different and past all that drama. In other words, I'm just not interested in YOU anymore. LOL! This is a great feeling folks. And I told him I still resent him for the bad mean things he did, so what's the point of even trying?! BROTHA PULEAZE! He was very polite, apologetic, and sounded almost defeated. Of course, it could all be an act since these people are terrific actors and full of BS, but I tell ya one thing, poor is the next man who is unaware and has to deal with HIM. He claimed to me he feels sorry and has "changed" and has taken time to analyze and be introspective. LMAO! Uh huh. Yeah. It sounds so convincing and I can't wait to return to him! I'm moving forward here folks, not backwards. Gracias. I've wanted my power back all this time, and I think I finally got it; ignoring this fool and playing hard-to-get recently from my end is apparently very fun, enticing, and challenging to him -- whereas trying to build something cool and maintain it turns him into an abusive maniacal bastard. Oh boy, God help ya kid. I'm over it. There's plenty of other lands to conquer, and it's obvious to me now after all of my personal suffering and insightful eye-opening research that he's hopeless. "Don't call me a narcissist, I am not like that!" I somehow think I've managed to upset him with the truth, but more than likely he forgets within 10 seconds and happily continues on his destructive path.

I watched Julie & Julia finally! Yeah, so Amy Adams' character and her boyfriend were a bit annoying and sugary, but man does this film make one wanna eat! What more can be said about Meryl Streep? WHAT MORE?! I hate to heap more accolades onto this woman who doesn't need them anymore, but she is really fun in this role as the late great eccentric kitchen goddess that was Julia Child. Julia had a very nice and loving husband, although they never had kids; both of them lived well into their nineties --Julia outlived him ten more years before she passed. Funny how all lives seem to end in death, no matter how remarkable. HA.

A look back at my doggy friend and good times we shared:

MIDTERM ELECTIONS = MORE OF THE SAME BS.

We should not hold on to resentment, because ultimately it poisons the person who clings to it, not the person it is intended for or directed at. Yes, how correct and true, but there are times it is also part of the healing process, and we must feel this inner rage and anger at having been wronged in order to come to terms with the damage done. It is normal/natural to really despise the person that treated you so poorly, and in my case this past spring and summer, I have more than enough reasons to truly loathe the creature I erroneously thought I loved. He manipulated the entire situation for his own selfish reasons, belittled me in the most subtle dark and evil ways, and then finally drops me for someone younger and better-looking whom he eventually proceeds to abuse as well. And then he wants me back as if nothing happened, as if he did not act in the most despicable manner?! This is how horrid and truly evil this individual is. There is no remorse, no empathy, no accountability for the psychological and emotional hurt caused to me or the many others he must go through like a pair of shoes. I will eliminate my rancor towards the savage, but it will take more time and little by little I have gotten stronger on a daily basis, but I won't lie or deny I am fully healed or over the pain yet. There are moments I do break down and wish him cancer or a serious car wreck, but I will slowly let this all go and let karma or God himself work their magic and teach this monstrosity a lesson. Or two. Or three.

Work has been pretty laidback as of late, and thank God for that right? I feel much less stressed here, and am very grateful for this. I have other issues that are weighing me down a bit, but onward I must go. This has been a very challenging tough year for me. WHEW! I cannot believe I am still standing and forging ahead. And so many have told me I have never looked better, more refreshed, or handsome than I do now. Ironic isn't it?! The invisible man in the sky that I try to have faith and believe in must be showing his mercy towards me at this very interesting part of my life. The world as a whole is going to hell kids. The natural disasters are going to get worse, poor Haiti just can't get a break, the economy is on course to collapse, and Lord only knows where we are headed as a species/civilization. I'm all for this f*cking mess to crash, explode, and burn for I feel this planet needs a good purging. Even if I have to die so be it. Bring forth that massive LA quake already! YEAH!

In the meantime, I'm going to simply concentrate on the present, on the very moment I am living. F*ck the future. There is none. There never was.

Like Ancient Rome, here's what our modern day lawmakers really think:

HALLOWEEN 2010.

It's HALLOWEEN weekend! As of this posting, I still have no definitive costume, but so what?! Something will materialize...

My good dear friend manages this blog on extraterrestrials and other strange out-of-this-world phenomena here in Los Angeles. He claims he's had close encounters of the third kind. YIKES! Or is it fourth?! Listen, I have never seen or had any direct contact with aliens and sh*t, but I've seen UFOs. Have you ever just gone outside on a regular night and stared up at the stars and the sky in general? Chances are you'll start finding really weird creepy aircraft doing strange things up there that defy normal logic. At my old place one night, I remember vividly seeing ships flying up there that were tiny and could be mistaken for a shooting star, but that definitely did not burn out or behave the way a meteorite should. This is one big vast incredibly complex universe, and who knows what kind of other "intelligent" life may be out there. I doubt they're as nice or friendly as E.T. was to Elliot in the famous film. The many drawings and renditions shown on television and in movies are pretty freaky. This documentary kind of creeps me out and it goes as far as to say that demons are the ones manifesting themselves here in the third dimension trying to effectively fool the masses so they can doubt the existence of God and to confuse minds. Like Howard Stern, I used to dismiss all this, but now am starting to wonder/entertain the idea of just what tha hell is going on here.

Holy cow, speaking of creepy, have you ever looked at a normal American dollar bill? Yes DAWG, A NICE OLE'-FASHIONED DEAD PREZIDENT! There's a lot of symbols on there. My oh my, what's this?! Most of us take George Washington on there for granted, but there's some interesting things going on there. Thank you YouTube again, for these videos. Freemasons helped found this country, but where they also part of a much bigger and dark secret society with nefarious intentions? Nothing was put on that bill by mistake, that's for sure. Fascinating interesting stuff indeed!

You won't believe this, but I was just about to end this post, when this news story popped up.

MON DIEU JEAN-JACQUES! THE FRENCH ARE RIOTING!

The only time I sincerely watch TV is if I am at friend's house. I can't seem to really enjoy it on my own anymore, and it's such a vast God damn annoying wasteland anyway! LIKE THIS BLOG! HA! If I'm by myself, the first thing I gravitate towards is the Internet and gay por...YOUTUBE! Yes, good ole' YouTube! It really is quite an incredible website that has ridiculously revolutionized my life and that of millions. I do watch silly clips here and there from time to time, but what most fascinates me and what I truly do appreciate about the Tube are some very awesome uploaded documentaries, biographies, and movies. You can learn so much! And lots of cool clips from old TV shows and news events before my time. Then there's those awesome conspiracy theory videos like Loose Change, Zeitgeist, and now I'm in the middle of watching this one which is quite long and a bit repetitive, but very informative nonetheless. I have nothing against wanting to be entertained and getting your mind off life's problems, but I feel American television nowadays is retarded and many of these sick horrible reality shows and lame talk shows are a sign of the true decay of our society. It's the way of keeping the masses dumb and distracted, while the government continues its unprecedented corruption and the economy keeps on tanking; you really believe this is just a recession or that it's over?! NO F*CKING WAY.

I been discussing GOD a bit lately with certain friends and my brother in Georgia even. After the harrowing traumatic experience this past spring and summer with the evil monster who cannot love, I have come to believe in God more than ever only because I can't quite comprehend or understand how I did not jump off a bridge or go insane with the awful grief I just went through. I guess time and perspective eventually heals everybody and it has nothing to do with God, but my particular story has a lot of instances that cannot be explained rationally, scientifically, or logically--at least to me. There was that dream I had after I prayed and prayed for an answer on that psychopath and why I was so hurt, and boom, it was granted! Or dead-on Bible verses that would pop at me randomly reassuring and comforting me that everything was going to be okay. Or the woman who does not know me, whom I've never met that recently during prayer told my aunt about everything that I had been through and how my blessings would return and be multiplied; kind of like the story of Job. There are plenty of atheists these days and rightfully so: religion is terribly corrupt, evil exists, and suffering is endless. Why would there be a God right?! But within me, it's been a feeling, a powerful feeling that I just cannot explain. I just don't think I'm still here and healing nicely just because. Call me crazy, kooky, retarded, or just plain ridiculous. But that's my story. I fully admit, I need this kind of comfort, especially for the kind of horrific crisis I just survived. Others cope differently and that's okay. Leave me with this at least please?

Wes Bentley and I look alike okay? And I love this scene period. And I love the classic "C*NT!" delivery here. Thanks again YouTube:

CHILEAN MINERS RULE THE WORLD.

AYN RAND! Have you ever heard of this woman?! She was a Russian-born Jewish lady that came to America, and ended up loving this country more than even her own husband! HA! Well, communism I'm sure was a drag, so Ayn was probably blown away by American capitalism and all its amazing smoke and mirrors. She was very intelligent and gifted from the time she was little and always felt a step ahead of her classmates and most people in general. She is most famous for her two classic books The Fountainhead and Atlas Shrugged, which are usually required reading in high schools and colleges across this country. These novels basically profess Ayn's philosophy of objectivism, which believes in complete rational reasonable thinking and the supreme power of the human mind to achieve whatever it wants. Therefore, there is no God in Ayn's view, because he or SHE cannot be proven logically. The woman was a staunch atheist and made no apologies for it. She was also very much against altruism, which is giving up your own interests and potential to help others through charity; Mother Theresa was probably not high on Ayn's list of admirable people, LOL! And she most certainly did not believe emotions were productive or necessary to the human experience, and get in the way of achieving one's true greatness. I find Ayn's ideas very interesting and fascinating and perhaps sometimes sensible, but the woman was a major narcissist. Humans are not just rational creatures, we have deep profound emotions too, and many who in their youth follow Ayn, eventually become disillusioned and abandon her extreme selfish and egotistical views. She has several riveting interviews on YouTube, but my favorites are her two appearances on Donahue's old talk show here and here. Who knows, you might find yourself agreeing with the bitch. HAHAHHAHAA!

I know this upcoming election is very important, but I just don't feel like voting. I've just about had it with the American political system. They all promise change and great things, but in the end, they're in it for themselves. What else is new right? The last politician that I feel actually did something good for this country was that horny womanizing Bill Clinton. Then Bush came into office, and the whole system began to fall apart for me--I find both major parties full of sh*t basically. They're always at each other's throats, but at the end of the day they're having dinner together and getting richer, while the f*cking country continues to crash and burn! The governor's race here in California has this annoying Meg Whitman woman who is already filthy rich and has spent $140 million of her own money already in advertising! GOD DAMN! There's no way an average Joe can even run for public office at all; it's all about how much money you already have! GEEZ! I hope that egomaniacal millionairess Meg loses to that closeted homo Jerry Brown, who has already been governor before in the 70s, although what does he have to offer this time around I'm not even sure, because all I ever see on TV are Meg ads left and right. And there's Prop 19 on the ballot I believe, which is regarding good ole' Mary Jane--WEED! Ugh, my sample ballot has arrived in the mail but I'm too lazy and apathetic to care. Might as well just toss it in the trash already.

I hold the 1976 fim Network in high esteem. The script is incredible, the acting superb, the relevance of the material and ideas as fresh today as they were then:

THE AMERICAN ECONOMY CONTINUES TO SUCK...

Good news kids! I have new job functions at work! WOOHOO! Feels like I've started a brand new job actually! A refreshing change! 2010 is starting to pick up for me I believe. KEEP ROOTING FOR ME WILL YA?!

Ya know, sometimes I stop and think about what a strange cultural clash upbringing I've lived through; the first generation son of immigrant parents from El Salvador. EL SALVADOR?! Boy, isn't that the place that is often mocked as backward and dirt poor?! LOL! In reality, it is just that, but from the three major visits I made to that small little country back in the 90s, it really is a very beautiful tropical land and to see the places where my mom and sperm donor came from is really quite humbling. Kind of like that part in The Godfather where Michael Corleone, who has only known America his whole life, goes back to Sicily for temporary exile, to see where his roots are based. Being born and growing up in the U.S. as first generation is very interesting. I was forced to speak only Spanish at home; my mom, late sperm donor and maternal grandma all had little to very broken English. I gotta give credit to my mom though, she has mastered speaking English very nicely with some trouble reading and writing still, but the woman can genuinely communicate in the Anglo world, although all her advice, scolding, and general ideas still come at me en español. So to learn English naturally through TV and school, and Castilian at home, I got to luckily become bilingual! My house was like another country basically, but once I left those doors I was always and still am a light-skinned average tall skinny American dude. My very Anglo friend said once years ago as he visited me, "Your house smells Hispanic." LOLOOOOL! Whatever that means! I guess he was referring to the odors left behind by the food we ate: beans, tortillas, cheese, rice, pupusas, etc. All washed down with a nice cold glass of good ole' Sunny Delight! AHAHAHAHHAHAHAAH! I saw a lot at my old house. Many good times and bad, and millions of people visited that place; relatives, friends, and strangers! The little Salvi house, 1982-2006. I live much more Anglicized now. I've moved up in the world! HEE!

So tomorrow Saturday would have been John Lennon's 70th birthday, had he lived of course. I love Paul McCartney's upbeat melodic playful enthusiasm in his songs, but I have always existentially identified with Lennon; he wrote from the deepest part of his subconscious that was filled with true angst and pain at the world he was born in. The guy was very much a cultural, social, and political mover and shaker, and wanted a more just and peaceful world, because he knew deep down inside that human society is unfair and rotten, and that we are a confused little species trying to figure out the true meaning of this bizarre yet fascinating existence.

In honor of John, who was without a doubt, a songwriter of immensely epic inspiration; I give you this awesome political/social anger anthem:

TONY CURTIS IS DEAD.

I want to thank all of you who stop by to read and most especially to those who comment with such interesting advice and comical colorful commentary! This past Monday, we had a record-breaking hot day of 113 degrees here in Los Angeles--hell is gonna be a lot worse for the next atrocious character I'm about to discuss:

Yeah so I was reading about Ryan O'Neal, who is probably best known for his cheesy ass role in Love Story. A moderately popular actor during the 70's, O'Neal has four kids by three different women: Griffin, Tatum, Patrick, and Redmond. When he meets the stunning sex symbol Farrah Fawcett in the late 70's during her prime, he manages to seduce her and she leaves Lee Majors! Anyway, Farrah and Ryan never got officially married, but he managed to put her through hell nonetheless as he cheated on her with many other women, and his kids are all f*cked up and have battled drug addiction problems. Tatum won an Oscar when she was just a child; it must've filled Ryan with a lots of inner envy but phony pride shown to the world that HE fathered such a talented child. Well, where am I going with all this? OF COURSE! Ryan O'Neal is none other than a PATHOLOGICAL MALIGNANT NARCISSIST. LOLOLOL! YIKES! And his son Griffin once had some terrible things to say about his father during an interview with Larry King right here. He was only by Farrah's side to get attention, and as a cancer survivor himself, Ryan was mad Farrah got the press to focus on her disease more than they had on his. He finally promised to marry Farrah only at the very end of her cancer (what a GREAT guy, blah!), and was seen smooching and running around with Farrah's supposed best friend as she was dying. He even did drugs with his son Redmond (Farrah's son) and hit on Tatum at Farrah's funeral not recognizing his own daughter! THE MAN IS A VILE SICK TWISTED PIG! UGH! It only takes one narcissist to ruin many lives, and this guy is a prime example. It's amazing how the pattern with these nightmarish scumbags is always the same: they seduce sweet nice attractive people (like Farrah who was described as very kind), and then emotionally abuse/destroy them and the kids they may leave behind. Yes, my thankfully deceased father and a still living disgusting uncle of mine in particular come to mind. I don't care how blood-related, if ya got one of these vampires in your family, RUN!

Lemme tells ya, this current boom of movies being released in 3-D is Hollywood's sad last attempt at getting people to come into theaters because they know they're losing audiences fast to the Internet and DVD home viewing. First of all, it's annoying to watch films in 3-D. I HATE IT! It gives me a headache and to have to wear dem retarded glasses over my current ones is frustrating. And have ya seen the cost of a movie ticket lately?! And the quality of films has gone down in my opinion with maybe three films a year at most worth going to see on a big screen. And then all these remakes and retelling of movies we've seen before or pointless sequels! CALGON TAKE ME AWAY! LOL! And now George Lucas is gonna milk the Star Wars cash cow with the movies being re-released in 3-D! HOW MANY MORE TIMES CAN HE MAKE MONEY OFF THE SAME MOVIES?! HOW MANY MORE BILLIONS DOES LUCAS NEED?! I WANT TO SCREAM! First on the big screen, then on VHS, then on the big screen with special editions, then on DVD with the original editions, then on DVD with the special editions, then the Blu-Ray, then the boring shitty prequels, IT NEVER ENDS! This galaxy far far away never goes AWAY! AHAHAHAHAHAH! Maybe I'm just old and bitter?

A modern track for you to enjoy--what a great little song, and wonderful video: